
I'm tired of waking up in tears,
'Cause I can't put to bed these phobias and fears
I'm new to this grief I can't explain;
But I'm no stranger to the heartache and the pain
The fire I began, is burning me alive
But I know better than to leave and let it die
I'm a silhouette asking every now and then
Is it over yet? Will I ever feel again?
I'm a Silhouette chasing rainbows on my own
But the more I try to move on the more I feel alone
So I watch the summer stars to lead me home
I'm sick of the past I can't erase,
A jumble of footprints and hasty steps I can't retrace,
The mountains of things that I still regret,
Is a vile reminder that I would rather just forget
(No matter where I go)
This song speaks so much to me that its not funny. Living a life with severe chronic disabilities is hard as it is. Throw back and hip pain to the point of tears into the mix and you got my everyday situation. There are days in which the pain is so severe that I cant walk without assistance and breaking into tears. None of my Drs have been able to find the source of my pain and they are all pushing me to take pills for it. I cant do this cause the dosage would have to be increased each week due to my body's remarkable ability to quickly develop a tolerance to pills. I feel as though they dont even listen cause Ive told them about that issue but they keep insisting that I take them. Not to mention that most of the pills they want to put me on will clash with my disabilities and make them worse. I honestly dont know how much more of this I can take.
BG © moonglowlilly
Cuore © Myself/Kagome963
LineArt © zamchandzicku on VK
Lyrics © Owl City
Category All / All
Species Wolf
Size 1280 x 853px
File Size 113.8 kB
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