I drew this while visiting some relatives in Oregon. I ended up drawing an awful lot during that time. Anyway, this was one of the many drawings that I somehow ended up doing while feeling depressed, trapped, and helpless. I tried to do something interesting with the background which worked out pretty well to me, although I'm not sure how well it communicates to non-me persons. The rain effect just fit the whole depressing mood to me ("No one can see you cry... alone in the rain"). At the same time, I tried to make the clouds blur into shading that was fairly horizontal-ish in an effort to make a duel effect of a scene of a storm, and blocks that I hoped would give a sort of trapped prison cell-like feeling.

An interesting note is I used a sort of drawing trick that I don't use as much anymore. That is, I found if I stared at a blank piece of paper long enough (especially under natural lighting with shadows being cast about), I'd eventually start to see images. The whole trick was to quickly sketch that image before you lost it, and without having your hand block part of it (which would make you lose that image). A lot of drawings around this time came right from my mind. Strangely, many of them turned out to be incredibly depressing and some were just outright disturbing to me. A psychoanalyst would have a field day with those.

The title itself has a couple of different meanings. But most are references to things that nobody would completely understand unless they were with me at the time I drew it. While this isn't the most technically perfect drawing, it's one that has always been important to me because of the personal meaning behind it.

The scan turned out somewhat gritty and the drawing has been smeared some since I drew it, so the quality is a little poor. And yes, I know the tail is WAY too long. For some odd reason, I didn't notice that until afterwards (in general, I always drew tails a lot longer than I did now just because I loved the way it could carry motion. Of course, that meant if I drew a tail a little too long... it was a lot too long).