Edit: damn, i had no clue about anything, did I?

Vent art of sorts. I have many things that have been sketched up for a while, but this one was the winner.
SO. After months of being single and figuring myself out a bit, getting through my own shit, I've recently started having romantic feelings for another person again. My past is telling me to slow down and distance myself... it almost screams at me to sabotage things before they are given a chance to burn me. Of course, I don't listen. Pour the liquid fire into my mouth and veins, because what have I got to lose? I've lost everything already; I had to pick myself up again and again. I took my time. I can't help the feelings that seem to seep from me in a simple touch, even looking this person in the eyes is difficult, like a tiny bird being held in huge hands. It's giving myself completely to someone again, all that I am; and with this comes fear of being hurt. If what this time alone has taught me, it is that everything is temporary, everything will come and go and life is short so ENJOY things as they are. Why should I keep letting fear hold me back? it holds me back from living, and I know I get paranoid so to ground myself is important. to know the risks are all i ever want to focus on that i forget there are good things possible too. As it is, maybe i want to be held and loved above all else, and I am willing to burn for it, over and over. I can love again, and be loved in return, and I am going to indulge in all that I can and hope for the best. We've told eachother that we love the other, it sounds sweet to my ears; i wont let fear take that from me!
This song is important to me, like many of Moses's songs. I feel like I've been alone for much longer than I have. I've had people come and go in my life, not necessarily just romantic, and we all move on to different things. Whether or not this is something that will last, I want to be here to witness it with no regrets. I wont regret love. I dont regret the past loves I've had, I only regret things that happened, but never the love. Even in my worst falling out, I still cherish what was good. Let me have this. Let me indulge.


"Indulge me
Indulge me

All my old lovers have found others
I was lost in the rapture
Dead Sea as barren as a stutter
And colored laughter
I don't trouble nobody
Nobody troubles my body after
All my old others have found lovers

Indulge me
Indulge me"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iliJsq7e-Ns
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-JeSL44Rrfw
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