Meringue feeling the tough struggle of being seen as a sympathizer when she thinks of herself as somewhere in the middle.... but still frustrated as how black and white this seems to be. And how little people seem to have the same thoughts...

Ilya thinks she’s far too friendly to be real and thinks he’s being clear but she takes it... quite differently. Agreeing out of exhaustion ....this only raises his suspicions of her being dangerous to him. (Unfortunately the danger they care about are not related)