*Sorry long post!*

I got this new desk last year around the summer I believe on sale! Might have been earlier but I honestly can't remember how long I have had it now. lol. I really love it! though a glass desk is hard to keep clean with cats around! lol Plus *Shocker* I ended up selling my old Cintiq 13hd and switched to the alternative display. The Huion Kamvas Gt-191 V2 just last week [with the battery free stylus and 19" inches] I wanted something bigger and didn't want to spend the money on a bigger cintiq because it wouldn't really fit on my desk. [Plus I was having so many issues with the wacom drivers on my cintiq that I was tired of having to manually start the driver every time my computer restarted etc. to fix it] This 19" tablet is perfect! Now of course it is very different than a cintiq and it doesn't have the best color display as a cintiq but I'm quite enjoying it so far. I did actually adjust the color on it to make it match my monitor more. It's not exact but it sure looks a whole lot better than when I first hooked it up. It was very washed out at first but with some color adjusting through the tablet itself and graphics card settings you can get it to look better. Also since I got the tablet I ran out of desk space for my keyboard so I ended up purchasing a clamp on keyboard tray for my glass desk to sit my keyboard on. Which I didn't know existed! best thing ever! I now wish I had one at work on my desk.

Now of course I don't draw as much furry as I used to. I have been focusing more on design and hand lettering work on the side of my Full-Time job. I'm trying to eventually go full-time freelance if I can. I really do miss drawing all my characters and doing commissions. I'm going to try and at least post something new every once in awhile. Right now I'm currently redrawing an old piece I did of my Husbands character as a Female.

Other than that I don't know if anyone read my journal yet. At the end of last year [November} I finally found out what has been wrong with my eye the past year after going to the eye doctor about 5-6 times..... Which I never updated on here about. Well...I found out I have lattice degeneration which is the thinning of the peripherals of my retina..which can lead to holes or tears [the paper I have says sometimes so I don't know if I can or not] There is a low risk of a retinal detachment...but with me being so near sighted I'm not sure if that puts me more at risk already. It started out having a spot in my vision [left eye] which I thought was a ocular migraine thing. I also had black speck floaters that I have never had in my vision before at all. I had an ophthalmologist and 1st retinal specialist I went to never find anything wrong. For a whole year! then in November of last year after going to my regular eye doctor for contacts and glasses I started getting flashing in my eyes which scared the crap out of me because I definitely wasn't seeing that before. Went to the 1st retinal specialist again and still nothing. I wasn't ok with that answer because I knew there was something wrong. I ended up going to a 2nd retinal specialist to get a 2nd opinion. That's when I found out what I had. Ever since than I have been completely scared every day not knowing what it can lead to. I had the doctor tell me there was nothing serious and that it should be ok to get checked once a year...unless something changes. Told me that it doesn't really progress. So I keep praying it never does change. To know that I have this and might possibly lose my vision later on scares me to no end especially when it's my work on the line.

So last year sucked for me! my day job has been more bearable but that's the only really good news. I'm really trying my hardest to not be so scared every day because it's been making me depressed. I keep praying and hoping it never gets worse that I hope one of the lucky ones that it never does change. I want to keep making art. When the Husband and I finally have a child of our own I want to be able to see my child grow up :( It's the uncertainty that terrifies me and the possibility of having to have eye surgery. But I do have to have hope that doctors and modern medicine can save my eyesight.

Anyway thanks for reading. I also have the whole thing in my journal too. I'm hoping for a better year for everyone and myself. SO PSA. Get your eyes checked if you see anything weird! if one person finds nothing wrong always get a 2nd or 3rd opinion....