So I snapped this year and stopped falling in love with everything that walked and I realized who I have a deep affection for... someone I want to fight for... Someone I know will come back. And then when they do come back I can be like "hey, here's all these pictures I drew of us as dogs while you were gone" which will either be creepy or endearing.

Edit: LOL. they came back, showed them the pictures, they liked them, but then through their (err... bad?) reactions to hardships i realized they wasn't "the one" either so i'm back to the drawing board, no pun intended. RIP my dumb ass in half. at least we can all laugh at my try hard bs!!!!!!!! altho technically i am 100% free now and that's a good weird feeling not to be bogged down anymore. like a bird free of oil slick (the oil is forced love)