You see... I'm just feeling abandoned again.
Like if I made a simple soung I have the feeling that everyone will leave me...

I'm not feeling good, I'm feeling lost and insecure, I hurted people's feeling, I tried to fix it but didn't work. I don't won't to be abandoned by my good friends, but I guess because of my personality and impulsiveness I made people uncorfotable.

Look, If I made you uncomfortable I'm sorry, if I annoyed you I'm sorry, if I was a bad friend and accidentally hurt you I'm sorry.

But if you give me a second chance, I swear I will do my best to be better.
Just don't abandon me without say anything. This just makes me feel extremely miserable.

Sorry if this sounds pretty depressed and personal, but I really need to spill all out.
And I decided to take a break from the fandom to reflect my past actions.

Hope you guys understand, and sorry for looking so pathetic.