It means Rest in Peace in latin

Just for the record
Im not dead haha

>>♦THE ARTWORK

>Type : Daily Painting - From the "unfinished insight sketches"

Title:  Requiescat in pace
Or (Rest in peace)

>Duration

♦ Orignal idea and sketch done on 2019-02-06, february six
♦ about 3 to 4 hours

>♦STORY

The Reason

They are three reasons why i did this

the first one,
i was feeling tired that day and sad
i wondered, how would be like if I took a rest
and then took it to the other extreme and portrayed it like if I was dead

 the second reason
Is the dead thing, the thought and meaning about dying and feeling like this.
as years go by, and the feeling does´nt go away.

The third one
Is the feeling itself, a portrayal to ilustrate how being this, feels.
i wont say how does it feel to be furry, because i believe this goes beyond
than just saying you are part of a fandom.

in fact, i started to feel like this, even before i knew there was a furry fandom thing.

I dont know about much about Psychology, but to kind of ilustrate it
i would describe it as brain behaviour were you start to feel you have another body
that is a reflection of the images you see. like a super empathy thing
like the "put yourself in the shoes of other", but taken to the extreme.
so suddenly this kind of neural brain ghosting occurs.
where you feel you have an strange, unexistant anatomy.
that for me is a phenomenon that i wished i could understand.

The Meaning

Now part of what you see here is an actual event

I was on top an eleveted terrain, and it was sunset
for the record i had clothes
and decided to lay down to watch the sky

Now this means, the fact that i cant control certain things in life
i was tired of fighting and punching the air with anger 
just to get no results. So for me it was a moment, to just deliver yourself to life
and what may happen will happen, good, bad or ugly, and just learn to live with it.

the truth is that i was having a very dark moment in life, i felt like i was in a prision
with no escape, with no control, and now that i stated to paint crazy like this
i feel i have been set free from some of those problems
but i dont know what to do or were to go, just other that skecth and paint what´s in my mind
and hope that everything will work and that the sun will shine another day.

I wrote this earlier, while thinking what i was supposed to write here

///

sadnees strikes upon my heart,
covers me in a blanket of sorrow,
that comforts my soul with tears.

life is like a blowing wind
it strikes so softly, but erodes away everything
things are wasting away with such ease

it was like only yesterday when i was 12
it was like yesterday, 
since i started to feel like this.

now im here, waliking the roads of life.
hoping i can live another day.
hoping i can find a place to go. 

im lost, i dont know where im going
i dont know what im doing.
i dont know why i live.

so i just delivered myself to life
gave up my expectations
and wait for the sunrise to come another day,

///

ummm.......When i read it, I cringe a little, 
but, that´s what came out of my heart so...what else?

What´s important here, is the fact that painting everyday has help me awfully a lot.
in many ways i cannot describe, and im very happy becouse of it.

>Inspiration Sources:

♦ Reality
♦ A vision inside my mind
♦Probably a lot of influence from Impressionism art.

> about the technique

♦a ver scattery, jiterry, cringy brush

> about the species

i dont think nothing specific
i just paint what i see in my mind or in my memory.
so i really dont know how to answer.

>♦GRIPE

Just for the sake of Irony, i think i might take a real rest from painting
maybe one or two days. 
so might not see me posting nothing in a while, 
is just that i have other projects which have some crucial delay
and need to make the time for them. or I might lose the delivery of them.

>♦CRITIQUE

I like the style
anatomy might need some help
but i think its cool

>Recommendations

ummm.....well, dont take to long to get back to painting
so you dont fall on that prision again.

>♦Personal Judgment, Score

Overall Quality 8/10 or 9

The Feel of expression 9/10
Technique 9/10
Anatomy 7/10
Shading 8/10
Construction 8/10
Lighting 8/10
Colors 7/12
Perspective 5/10
Creativity 7/9
Style 8.5/10
Composition 7/10
Shapes 6/10
Stroke Flow ?/11
Design 6/10
Gesture 5/10

♦ Negative values

Ugliness 3/10
Boringness 4/10
Level of self-cringeness 5/10

v01 20/03/2019

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