This drawing is quite valuable and I admit that it did me a lot well.

It is true, recently, I have a decrease of courage and strength in drawing ...

Despite my evolution, constantly comparing with my drawing from
last year. Despite a certain technical evolution, color, anatomy, staging,
I just could not satisfy myself ... And this was the first real time in 5 years of work where
I was really not happy with what I I had realized to develop some fear of posting my creation.
(Yes that's ridiculous)


Taking as an example a lot of illustrator who were kind to help me during
my apprenticeship, that I would thank everyone forever and hope this will recognize
(I love you so much for all that you have done and especially to have me always push to continue and beat me)
little by little I came like an asshole to tell me

"What's the point"

look at others, look at what you admire, and the famous ...

"You are ALWAYS not able to do it"

as I professionalize more and more, his words and his fear came to smash
my mouth and really put me on my knees for the first time.

(Black Water who still has no TRUE page is probably my biggest
fear and cause doubt about my goal)

I admit to having put a huge pressure on me, knowing that
I will participate in my first real convention as a seller and that ... despite my 25 brooms and a certain technique
(yes I happen to recognize it) bah I'm freaking out.


I speak, I speak and thank you for reading this little text that
I had I really need to externalize and
I finally realize one thing in finishing this drawing.

I missed something for a few days, an essential thing!
The technique ? The perfect anatomy? The dynamic posing?
The staging and decorations ultra detailed? Not all of that,
what I missed was just this fun and the pleasure of drawing what I like,
whatever the rendering and level.

Have fun creating! Having fun as the big kid that I am,
who still has stars in his eyes as he looks at power ranger
screaming all openings with his wife every night during our evening TV lovers.


Thank you Power ranger to have opened my eyes in this big period of doubt,
and to remind me that it is the fact that I am having fun and bloom in
my universe that makes me so much like drawing.
And not this quest made perfect to imitate idols that
I would probably never catch up.

So go go xeno tidy up! Put on your pink outfit,
put your stupid poses with your anatomy far from perfect and your decor sucks,
but this time with this drawing, I can say yes. I had fun.

Sorry for this long pavement,
but this drawing allowed me to take a step back and did me a lot of good

And of course thanks to you who despite my errors in general terms and sometimes
uneven drawings between what I am able to produce,
continue to follow and like what I realize.