That's the question I ask myself every day, every moment, every word I say, every thing I do, every time I'm interacting with people, in person or on the internet, I say to myself, why are you like that?
You know that people don't ike your presence, you know they only use you to make fun of you, you know you're not a big deal to anyone, so why do you insist?
Why are you so expressive?
Why are you so honest?
Why are you so selfish?
Why do you talk so much?
Why are you like that?

I hate my way of being, seriously I hate myself. Everyone has told me that a person can change, but it is very difficult, unconsciously, that's how I am, I forget to be more quiet and serious, forget that I have to change
All my life I had this problem, since kindergarden my parents and my teachers told me "make an effort", but I forgot it, I continued with my life, even if they told me one million times "make a change" I forgot it and it was still me, that was and has been my most serious error
Kindergarten, Primary, Secondary, High School...

I don't know how to be more mature and stop being a child
I'm sorry for being an asshole