That's not how it works. I have friends and i'm still not happy. If we won't work on ourselfs, no matter who will be our friends, they won't change a thing. In the end, only you can help yourself. And no matter how low you are. As long as you are still alive, you can win this fight. Depression is enemy that kick where it hurts, sucking life and happines out of you.

Also, you might concider changing a title to "In Purrrsuit of just feeling OK" haha
Some inspiration that helped me more than once: https://youtu.be/ezdyy7FeF8M