It's kind of funny, because even though my own path to realizing I was nonbinary/agender was quite different from yours, at the same time I feel like there are so many parallels (islands of thought, having a weird sense of "wrongness" that I often projected onto something else, the subconscious attachment to dragons as "genderless", etc.)

In a way it's kind of reassuring to find somebody that has that much in common with me!

I only hesitantly started to identify as Nonbinary/Agender half a year ago, and I had my doubts, but the longer I've gone on, the more right it feels.

I hope your journey of self-discovery does good for you, too!

...but the longer I've gone on, the more right it feels.

Pretty much word to that. I did have slight doubts in the beginning, even in those mentioned two weeks in which I was really off the rails emotionally and mentally, but the more the dust settled, and the more I began to remember stuff from as far as back as my childhood, I realized that it indeed was the case. And now... I kinda accepted it? I'm still a bit out of my depth sometimes, though. My thoughts still circulate around "And now what??" and "Why couldn't I have figured it out much sooner??". Especially the latter question bothers me. I didn't really mention it in the comic above, but every couple of years there was something that really should have made it obvious for me what was going on, but I was just too thick to connect the dots. Like... for instance, there was someone I know who came out as "neutral", with writing a blog about it and everything. I found it all quite... "fascinating" (for the lack of a better word) and even read into it a bit. Technically it should have hit me bullseye back then, yet somehow... it missed. I didn't give it a second thought anymore and continued with my awkward business. Oh well.

It did hit me in the end though, since that person was a dragon. And I did notice, once thinking about it, that a suspicious amount of dragon people I know (and felt a connection to) came out as NB or trans. And they always were people who identified with their sona HARD. Something that I am guilty of myself, so it made me wonder - and eventually set the wheels in my head in motion.

Yeah, I'd known about "nonbinary" and "genderqueer" for a couple of years before I came out, but before that, I'd had something of a... admiration for and fascination with the trans community. That didn't make me an ally, by any means though - there was still some cissexism I had to work out, after all - and some cissexism that I *still* have to work out, as I encounter it.

There's quite a bit of "Well that's relatable, but I couldn't POSSIBLY be trans" that I was going through. It took, of all things, a dream i had where I was bigender and having all of my friends accept me for who I am that it made me realize "Oh, maybe my assumptions about myself are wrong."

Ironically, I would turn out the opposite of bigender, but that dream still shook my core assumptions enough to make me actually give it a try.

Ironically, compared to your experience, I've never been able to have a true 'sona attachment until now - my 'sona before never wanted to fit me, always growing into a character of their own. But I adapted Rithm, an old OC of mine from my teenage years, and changed them to be my new 'sona for a nonbinary me, including breaking the gender aesthetic boundaries I'd subconsciously set for myself.

And it feels like, for the first time in my life, I *actually* identify strongly with my 'sona. And it's nice.