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NOT trans-related vent art for once. But...my body IS betraying me. Apparently I have a mass in my abdomen. Had to get an ultrasound today, they of course won't tell you anything, so I'm waiting for a call from my doctor later this week (hopefully). Whatever it is, it hurts. I've had sharp pains for over a year.
But I was reluctant to get a pelvic exam. Put it off far too long. Oops. Trans guys, don't skip paps and pelvic exams, it's important for us too.
I just feel pretty low today. I haven't told my ex husband or my son, and I don't know that I will until I know what it is and what to do about it. I've told my dad and my closest friends, but otherwise it's something I'm keeping to myself. Hence the need to vent about it artistically.
I can't help but worry.
But I was reluctant to get a pelvic exam. Put it off far too long. Oops. Trans guys, don't skip paps and pelvic exams, it's important for us too.
I just feel pretty low today. I haven't told my ex husband or my son, and I don't know that I will until I know what it is and what to do about it. I've told my dad and my closest friends, but otherwise it's something I'm keeping to myself. Hence the need to vent about it artistically.
I can't help but worry.
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Best case scenario, it's a massive cyst. Worst case scenario, cancer. Probably going to have to come out no matter what due to location and pain, so there's that. Honestly at this point I'd welcome surgery because the feeling-like-I'm-being-stabbed-randomly-in-the-side-of-my-pelvis is getting old fast. My fear is that my kid will be upset if I don't tell him NOW, but I also know he's gonna freak out and get scared if I DO tell him now. Like...how do you explain to a teenager "well, I have a cyst or tumor" without scaring them? IDK. Kid is getting back from a trip with the in-laws tomorrow so I'm like...do I tell him or not on the drive home? Or over dinner? or like...at all?
Sorry I just don't know what to do.
Sorry I just don't know what to do.
Oh damn... :( How old is he? If he's old enough to understand what's going on, I'd say tell him, but let him know that they're taking care of you and doing everything to make it all good, so that it's not too bad sounding, while still letting him know that it is serious.
What a hard situation to be in :( Without getting in too much details, is it somewhere that they're able to operate easily?
I hope everything goes well though <3
What a hard situation to be in :( Without getting in too much details, is it somewhere that they're able to operate easily?
I hope everything goes well though <3
For some stupid reason this didn't post as a reply below so I'm like...C&P-ing the whole thing lol.
Sorry for the laggy reply, I've been hella busy the last like two weeks. So I decided to tell him and he was naturally freaked out, but I reassured him I'll probably be fine no matter what. I emphasized that with any health issue there's always risks but that my risks are pretty minimal.
In the meantime I got results from the ultrasound...it's not a mass hiding my ovary, it IS my ovary, which is large and in the entire wrong place. My doctor has no idea what the hell to do with that info so I'm now waiting for a referral to some other office but who the hell knows what they are or when. Apparently they'll call me and just set up the appointment? IDK.
But in the meantime I'm also freaking out over other shit so all in all I'm just a wad of stress right now I guess lol.
Sorry for the laggy reply, I've been hella busy the last like two weeks. So I decided to tell him and he was naturally freaked out, but I reassured him I'll probably be fine no matter what. I emphasized that with any health issue there's always risks but that my risks are pretty minimal.
In the meantime I got results from the ultrasound...it's not a mass hiding my ovary, it IS my ovary, which is large and in the entire wrong place. My doctor has no idea what the hell to do with that info so I'm now waiting for a referral to some other office but who the hell knows what they are or when. Apparently they'll call me and just set up the appointment? IDK.
But in the meantime I'm also freaking out over other shit so all in all I'm just a wad of stress right now I guess lol.
Well, according to my doctor when they first found it, it's nothing good. Best case scenario is a cyst, worst case scenario is cancer. But no matter what it looks like it's probably gonna have to come out. Surgery doesn't scare me too much and I'm really ready to get rid of the random stabbing pain it's apparently the cause of, but I'm freaking out about whether or not to tell my kid. He's a teenager so like...everything is super emotional for him. And I know this'll scare him. But I also know he's gonna be hella upset if I don't tell him until later. I'm gonna be in a car with him for three hours straight tomorrow so IDK if it's a good time to explain it or not. I just don't know.
But I'm doing okay for now. I've been feeling these pains for like two years so another week won't kill me (FUCK I HOPE NOT ANYWAYS!). I don't know how okay I'll be once I have an actual diagnosis but I guess I'll burn that bridge when I come to it?
But if I think of anything I won't hesitate to ask.
But I'm doing okay for now. I've been feeling these pains for like two years so another week won't kill me (FUCK I HOPE NOT ANYWAYS!). I don't know how okay I'll be once I have an actual diagnosis but I guess I'll burn that bridge when I come to it?
But if I think of anything I won't hesitate to ask.
Sorry for the laggy reply, I've been hella busy the last like two weeks. So I decided to tell him and he was naturally freaked out, but I reassured him I'll probably be fine no matter what. I emphasized that with any health issue there's always risks but that my risks are pretty minimal.
In the meantime I got results from the ultrasound...it's not a mass hiding my ovary, it IS my ovary, which is large and in the entire wrong place. My doctor has no idea what the hell to do with that info so I'm now waiting for a referral to some other office but who the hell knows what they are or when. Apparently they'll call me and just set up the appointment? IDK.
But in the meantime I'm also freaking out over other shit so all in all I'm just a wad of stress right now I guess lol.
In the meantime I got results from the ultrasound...it's not a mass hiding my ovary, it IS my ovary, which is large and in the entire wrong place. My doctor has no idea what the hell to do with that info so I'm now waiting for a referral to some other office but who the hell knows what they are or when. Apparently they'll call me and just set up the appointment? IDK.
But in the meantime I'm also freaking out over other shit so all in all I'm just a wad of stress right now I guess lol.
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