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It is a strange thing.
I'd like to think I'm a good man, in the things that I do and the time and things that I give. And I suppose by measures of person/income gains, I am a successful man, one with a great drive for achieving things and many learned skills, both useful and artistic.
Yet in spite these things, there is a hollowness, an emptiness to that. I sit here, solitary in my cave, without one whom I can share this life- to tell all these stories I've created, to share the worlds I've built, to experience all these things I find excitement in, to explore all the places in life I'd like to go, or to have a family to pass all that I have learned to, those to pass the collected experience to.
The strangeness of it is for all that this fire burns, it is as though I am not complete. And God I wish I could find she that I could provide the same fulfillment that I seem to yearn-
But for now, without that, I cannot help but feel desperately, painfully,
Alone.
A tremendous thanks you to
Honovy for capturing this theme so perfectly, and the seriousness in which the idea was taken.
I'd like to think I'm a good man, in the things that I do and the time and things that I give. And I suppose by measures of person/income gains, I am a successful man, one with a great drive for achieving things and many learned skills, both useful and artistic.
Yet in spite these things, there is a hollowness, an emptiness to that. I sit here, solitary in my cave, without one whom I can share this life- to tell all these stories I've created, to share the worlds I've built, to experience all these things I find excitement in, to explore all the places in life I'd like to go, or to have a family to pass all that I have learned to, those to pass the collected experience to.
The strangeness of it is for all that this fire burns, it is as though I am not complete. And God I wish I could find she that I could provide the same fulfillment that I seem to yearn-
But for now, without that, I cannot help but feel desperately, painfully,
Alone.
A tremendous thanks you to
Honovy for capturing this theme so perfectly, and the seriousness in which the idea was taken.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Still Life
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I know this feeling all too well. It's never fun to go through, and it's hard to find someone and/or a group of people to share such passions and ideas. If anything, I am curious to see where your stories will take you, and I hope that there is someone that will reciprocate those feelings with.
All I can say is that you do what you need to do to make your life a fulfilling one and be happy with it. :)
All I can say is that you do what you need to do to make your life a fulfilling one and be happy with it. :)
This is a really beautiful and emotion filled painting ;..;
Keep building yourself up, your skills and experience and in time the rest falls into place c:
The pursuit of feeling whole and complete is a long and challenging journey, I find solace in trying to enjoy the journey as much as the end result, as cliche as that may sound.
Keep building yourself up, your skills and experience and in time the rest falls into place c:
The pursuit of feeling whole and complete is a long and challenging journey, I find solace in trying to enjoy the journey as much as the end result, as cliche as that may sound.
Thanks Dan!
And yeah, in spite how I find myself feeling at times, I still work to drive forward, and improve myself, my skillset, and build experiences. I wish that time just wasn't at time such a cruel mistress at time, as the patience for it is difficult at times :/
And yeah, I definitely make a point to enjoy the journey X'D But God have I wanted someone to share it with in the recent months- After 12 years of being completely single, it seems like it is a longing that was long suppressed and is coming back with a vengeance :/
V/R,
Cap Mag.
And yeah, in spite how I find myself feeling at times, I still work to drive forward, and improve myself, my skillset, and build experiences. I wish that time just wasn't at time such a cruel mistress at time, as the patience for it is difficult at times :/
And yeah, I definitely make a point to enjoy the journey X'D But God have I wanted someone to share it with in the recent months- After 12 years of being completely single, it seems like it is a longing that was long suppressed and is coming back with a vengeance :/
V/R,
Cap Mag.
I know that Buddy ! the only thing i can say to you : you are still alone cause you will find an awesome mate.
i had my first mate at 29 years old, i was always alone before that
now she said yes to become my Wife ^^ and we are fucking happy
Hang on, go outside, your turn will come :)
i had my first mate at 29 years old, i was always alone before that
now she said yes to become my Wife ^^ and we are fucking happy
Hang on, go outside, your turn will come :)
Man, I'm right there beside you, proverbially speaking. I've had two girlfriends in my entire life and I've been single for the past five even though I've been looking. I tried going out with someone this month and... ugh, we just did not connect. I would like nothing more than a fellow creative person to bounce ideas around with and share everything with. Until then, I'm alone in my room, reading books and just imaging what could be.
I hear ya man,
Though I dunno if I could go out with a complete stranger, I suspect that it would start with a friendship, and that a successful connection, at least for me, will be with someone I've already gotten to know-
Hope things work out for you before too long though-
V/R,
Cap Mag.
Though I dunno if I could go out with a complete stranger, I suspect that it would start with a friendship, and that a successful connection, at least for me, will be with someone I've already gotten to know-
Hope things work out for you before too long though-
V/R,
Cap Mag.
Well, my two relationships started as friendships first, which kind of ruined them when we broke up. And after a five-year solitary spell, I've taken a few stabs at conventional dating but haven't had much luck there either. I'm more or less demisexual, so I feel like I'm stuck in a catch-22 some times.
And thanks, same to you.
And thanks, same to you.
Oddly enough, I'm often around people-
But most people I know are married or otherwise unavailable, and I move so often that it's incredibly difficult to establish connections (as I move every 12-24 months because of the profession I'm in-)
Though feeling taboo? Hmmm, at this point I do wonder about that possibility at times myself, particularly with the chaos I am experiencing in life at the moment...
But most people I know are married or otherwise unavailable, and I move so often that it's incredibly difficult to establish connections (as I move every 12-24 months because of the profession I'm in-)
Though feeling taboo? Hmmm, at this point I do wonder about that possibility at times myself, particularly with the chaos I am experiencing in life at the moment...
"And God I wish I could find she that I could provide the same fulfillment that I seem to yearn" ...Is really difficult to express just how much I share what you mean, and especially that line you put there, as well as going out with someone you don´t know.
Consequentially, I will take a minute to properly and briefly adress this.
In the personal terrain, I'm going for my fourth year single, and my social circle stopped providing opportunities to find that someone. ...so it is really basic, either I look out of the box into strangeness or keep being single, but as you wonderfully but it, that won't ever fill the void.
...that deep desire to have someone on your side when you go to bed. It only needs confidence and understanding, and that takes time to build regardless if I like it or not.
Things we can always remind ourselves:
1. Never be closed to meeting new people. I often think of myself as asexual, but with time I´ve learned that "classifying yourself" only rises absurd barriers from others. How can you possibly know if the right person is right across your street? It could be anyone, and that is something to be open to.
2. Everyone has their own rhythm. Many find young, many find old, and feeling lonely is totally normal, sure, it suks from time to time, but it is as normal as anger, joy, etc.
Finally, I can´t help suggesting this youtube channel (many interesting topics and videos). In this particular case, this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3Xv_g3g-mA
*Having a dog is always a good idea.
*...maybe a giant plush tiger or something as well?
Hope I dindn´t wrote too much hehe
Cheers mate!
Consequentially, I will take a minute to properly and briefly adress this.
In the personal terrain, I'm going for my fourth year single, and my social circle stopped providing opportunities to find that someone. ...so it is really basic, either I look out of the box into strangeness or keep being single, but as you wonderfully but it, that won't ever fill the void.
...that deep desire to have someone on your side when you go to bed. It only needs confidence and understanding, and that takes time to build regardless if I like it or not.
Things we can always remind ourselves:
1. Never be closed to meeting new people. I often think of myself as asexual, but with time I´ve learned that "classifying yourself" only rises absurd barriers from others. How can you possibly know if the right person is right across your street? It could be anyone, and that is something to be open to.
2. Everyone has their own rhythm. Many find young, many find old, and feeling lonely is totally normal, sure, it suks from time to time, but it is as normal as anger, joy, etc.
Finally, I can´t help suggesting this youtube channel (many interesting topics and videos). In this particular case, this one:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n3Xv_g3g-mA
*Having a dog is always a good idea.
*...maybe a giant plush tiger or something as well?
Hope I dindn´t wrote too much hehe
Cheers mate!
Thanks Srach,
Admittedly, getting to know new people is not entirely my issue, but establishing a deeper connection, well, it very often is, particularly because I move so incredibly often I'm completely unable to form a social circle outside of work. Hell, I'll be moving to a new assignment after 12 months at this one, and I spent a good portion of this one on jobs that required travel. As for rhythm? True, though solitude has often been my companion, the loneliness has gotten to be particularly raw of late.
And I do wish I could have a dog right now- But I couldn't possibly give them a good life with how seldom I'm at home now.
Admittedly, getting to know new people is not entirely my issue, but establishing a deeper connection, well, it very often is, particularly because I move so incredibly often I'm completely unable to form a social circle outside of work. Hell, I'll be moving to a new assignment after 12 months at this one, and I spent a good portion of this one on jobs that required travel. As for rhythm? True, though solitude has often been my companion, the loneliness has gotten to be particularly raw of late.
And I do wish I could have a dog right now- But I couldn't possibly give them a good life with how seldom I'm at home now.
Not wanting to press answers you may feel unwilling to give here. (for any reason and far less in the comment section), but it´s worth taking the time to address important things such as this.
It is probably impossible to forge deep connections with others if you are constantly moving from place to place like a nomad, and not exactly for your lack of will to do so, but because it necessarily involves time. Time to share in common, in the same way, one cultivates bonds with close friends even when sometimes you don't want to see them.
My godfather told me a similar truth. That is better to seek those close bonds with people you share some history with that to lose too much energy trying to achieve the same with countless strangers. ...couse at the end, one has limited amounts of energy to give away, so one might as well spend it wisely. Seeking balance in life, is the key in any arena.
I do feel terribly lonely as well from time to time, but I sure don´t have your lifestyle. To learn how to live with that void can´t be a heavy thing to combat, cause it somehow drains part of the vital energy ...anyway, ...yes it can be hard to make deep connections, and one of the easiest ways to do that is to seek for good conversations. Try haveing the circumstances work on your favor. As an example, we became very good friends (with one of my current best) after we had one single meaningful chat in somebody else's house. ...and we became close friends in a surprisingly short period of time.
Ok so to avoid writing a letter (cause I like to write as well as philosophize about life aspects XD), asking questions here, and give a comment only the right length, I will say this last thing.
I don´t claim to be a wise man, but only one who has some thoughts on the topic, if anything (and even if English is not my native), here we are if you ever want a chat or something. ...leave the door open if you feel sharing things with a total stranger on the other side of the world XD ...you know, that´s beside me congratulating your artwork haha.
Cheers from Chile mate!
It is probably impossible to forge deep connections with others if you are constantly moving from place to place like a nomad, and not exactly for your lack of will to do so, but because it necessarily involves time. Time to share in common, in the same way, one cultivates bonds with close friends even when sometimes you don't want to see them.
My godfather told me a similar truth. That is better to seek those close bonds with people you share some history with that to lose too much energy trying to achieve the same with countless strangers. ...couse at the end, one has limited amounts of energy to give away, so one might as well spend it wisely. Seeking balance in life, is the key in any arena.
I do feel terribly lonely as well from time to time, but I sure don´t have your lifestyle. To learn how to live with that void can´t be a heavy thing to combat, cause it somehow drains part of the vital energy ...anyway, ...yes it can be hard to make deep connections, and one of the easiest ways to do that is to seek for good conversations. Try haveing the circumstances work on your favor. As an example, we became very good friends (with one of my current best) after we had one single meaningful chat in somebody else's house. ...and we became close friends in a surprisingly short period of time.
Ok so to avoid writing a letter (cause I like to write as well as philosophize about life aspects XD), asking questions here, and give a comment only the right length, I will say this last thing.
I don´t claim to be a wise man, but only one who has some thoughts on the topic, if anything (and even if English is not my native), here we are if you ever want a chat or something. ...leave the door open if you feel sharing things with a total stranger on the other side of the world XD ...you know, that´s beside me congratulating your artwork haha.
Cheers from Chile mate!
Not gonna lie,
I'd not dated or done anything like that until very recently, and when things did not work out one way or another, and I was on my own again, the loneliness hit with a vengeance, and it is as though was a long suppressed desire that the floodgates were open on.
I say that to follow with that when you do find a partner or start to date someone, it works out for ya ultimately, as the realization of what you're missing makes you want it all the more strongly :/
V/R,
Cap Mag.
I'd not dated or done anything like that until very recently, and when things did not work out one way or another, and I was on my own again, the loneliness hit with a vengeance, and it is as though was a long suppressed desire that the floodgates were open on.
I say that to follow with that when you do find a partner or start to date someone, it works out for ya ultimately, as the realization of what you're missing makes you want it all the more strongly :/
V/R,
Cap Mag.
I too started dating later in life, and you experience the pains of loneliness for the first time when you first start out, regardless of age. You will find someone, just keep searching and I hope you find someone you can truly feel comfortable spending your life together with. Relationships are not perfect but you’ll find one that works for you!
Oh, am tracking,
And is not for lack of tracking, but it is in the failing at it that I really come to realize just how strong the desire for such a connection is. Perhaps the ignorance of it in the previous 12 years made the desire less strong, or perhaps because I was so focused on the job and the fact I couldn't give a significant other their due amount of time, but here I am.
V/R,
Cap Mag.
And is not for lack of tracking, but it is in the failing at it that I really come to realize just how strong the desire for such a connection is. Perhaps the ignorance of it in the previous 12 years made the desire less strong, or perhaps because I was so focused on the job and the fact I couldn't give a significant other their due amount of time, but here I am.
V/R,
Cap Mag.
It breaks my heart to say this, but I feel you. I will be 40 in 11 days. I have had a few relationships but nothing has ever really satisfied me. My heart longs to adore someone, cherish someone, love someone. And yet, I wear a wedding ring (fake) so that people will leave me alone.
I work in the service industry, run my own business, and am what could be considered, at least, mildly successful. Other people have described me as handsome, etc. And before I wore the wedding ring, women would throw themselves at me. Even married women (Which makes me angry, to be honest).
After my last relationship, over 4 years ago, ended with her cheating on me and sleeping around despite me holding her in my arms, by the fire, and never loving a woman more than I had loved her, she eviscerated my heart, and kept ripping the wound open, over, and over, and over, until I just broke all communication with her.
My friend... Mark my words... Some of the loneliest people in the world are married and share a bed with their spouse every night.
My mentor, who was one such man, once told me, "It is better to be lonely and by yourself, than lonely with someone else."
I have found solace with God and Jesus and while religion might not be your thing, it can help when things are.... real bad.
I have two beloved dogs that are my life and joy, that I cherish and adore. They are my babies, and it is impossible to feel lonely when I am holding one of them in my arms and feeling their gentle, loving spirits.
Instead, I focus on writing, on creating true-love scenarios, but I am careful not to fall too hard, because these stories can also make me twice as lonely, because my heart is experiencing a relationship, but my person, is not.
Anyway I will pray for you, for relief, for wisdom. While there is a LOT of misogyny in the MGTOW movement, I suggest watching a few videos there for some hard truth, just beware, hating women is a fools passion, because it is not a woman who is flawed, it is a lack of education and understanding, and who ridicules someone for not being educated properly when that education is simply not available to them. Anyway, MGTOW has helped me realize that my long-held beliefs about marriage and relationships were wrong, and helped me to concentrate on my hobbies, and on self-education and self-improvement.
You have quite a wonderful story here, with your wonderful anthro characters, my suggestion would be, focus on that. Put your heart into it... You will pay a price with more felt loneliness, but you will also come to see what this world offers, and you may realize your hope is better placed elsewhere, where your efforts will bear fruit.
I work in the service industry, run my own business, and am what could be considered, at least, mildly successful. Other people have described me as handsome, etc. And before I wore the wedding ring, women would throw themselves at me. Even married women (Which makes me angry, to be honest).
After my last relationship, over 4 years ago, ended with her cheating on me and sleeping around despite me holding her in my arms, by the fire, and never loving a woman more than I had loved her, she eviscerated my heart, and kept ripping the wound open, over, and over, and over, until I just broke all communication with her.
My friend... Mark my words... Some of the loneliest people in the world are married and share a bed with their spouse every night.
My mentor, who was one such man, once told me, "It is better to be lonely and by yourself, than lonely with someone else."
I have found solace with God and Jesus and while religion might not be your thing, it can help when things are.... real bad.
I have two beloved dogs that are my life and joy, that I cherish and adore. They are my babies, and it is impossible to feel lonely when I am holding one of them in my arms and feeling their gentle, loving spirits.
Instead, I focus on writing, on creating true-love scenarios, but I am careful not to fall too hard, because these stories can also make me twice as lonely, because my heart is experiencing a relationship, but my person, is not.
Anyway I will pray for you, for relief, for wisdom. While there is a LOT of misogyny in the MGTOW movement, I suggest watching a few videos there for some hard truth, just beware, hating women is a fools passion, because it is not a woman who is flawed, it is a lack of education and understanding, and who ridicules someone for not being educated properly when that education is simply not available to them. Anyway, MGTOW has helped me realize that my long-held beliefs about marriage and relationships were wrong, and helped me to concentrate on my hobbies, and on self-education and self-improvement.
You have quite a wonderful story here, with your wonderful anthro characters, my suggestion would be, focus on that. Put your heart into it... You will pay a price with more felt loneliness, but you will also come to see what this world offers, and you may realize your hope is better placed elsewhere, where your efforts will bear fruit.
This picture hits the feelings on so many levels, and paints how we all feel at some point in time without a significant other. My relationship right now is long distance, and I've been living on my own the past year or so with no one else around, so there are some points in time that I'm basically the same as this picture. I do hope that you find someone that you can connect with, and share those great memories and stories with. Great things take time.
Thank you :)
I can fortunately say that things are turning around on this at current, and that what's developed in the past 6 months has truly been worth the wait, the search, the suffering :)
For what it is worth, I do hope your own pursuit is rewarded in kind as well, because I definitely understand how with time, it just gets harder and harder to remain, alone-
V/R,
Cap Mag.
I can fortunately say that things are turning around on this at current, and that what's developed in the past 6 months has truly been worth the wait, the search, the suffering :)
For what it is worth, I do hope your own pursuit is rewarded in kind as well, because I definitely understand how with time, it just gets harder and harder to remain, alone-
V/R,
Cap Mag.
This is where I’m at in life without the major successful gains. Knowing where you went from here must make you proud and happy. The loneliness wasn’t permanent and love was discovered. That doesn’t mean it will be rosy every day, but it must be something else to experience.
Best of luck and take care
Best of luck and take care
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