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Personal edge, for personal edgy reasons.
Anyway, fun fact: Owen has tritanopia, and thinks limes are blueberries.
EDIT: I FEEL THIS REQUIRES AN EDGY DESCRIPTION.
This is kind of vent art. Sometimes, when I'm just sittin', shit happens. I get caught up in my own mind, and sometimes struggle to navigate it myself, or understand what I'm really thinking or feeling, or what reality really means. I came from a childhood, young adulthood, of strong religious belief, one I dedicated my entire life to. In the last year or two, I've discovered this reality carefully curated around me, and by myself, was a lie. It was everything. To finally think that what I believed wasn't true was like learning that the sky is blue when you've been taught all your life that it's green. It seems like a fact, a necessary function of the universe, unarguable. It feels as though the rug has been pulled from underneath you, and the foundation of your home with it. You suddenly realize why shadows are often blue and not green.
Learning these kinds of things not only makes you feel betrayal towards the people who drilled this doctrine into you, but also to yourself. How can you trust yourself when your own mind has been proven to be able to be manipulated, to the point you'd do any amount of mental gymnastics to make this green sky a reality? It's unnerving - and often feels polarizing, as if your beliefs and logic no longer match each other. I believe it's a breaking of cognitive dissonance. A realization that you can be wrong, horribly wrong, and can hurt people, thinking you've done the right thing.
My alt universe where Owen lives is a bit of a mental space for me, and Owen's dedication to the Navy has been programmed into him, drilled, indoctrinated, before he could ever begin to work out abstract concepts himself. There is a point, somewhere in this labyrinth of storytelling, where truths get revealed, where true free will is finally found, where he realizes he doesn't see colors for what they actually are. I imagine it would be a similar experience.
Anyway, fun fact: Owen has tritanopia, and thinks limes are blueberries.
EDIT: I FEEL THIS REQUIRES AN EDGY DESCRIPTION.
This is kind of vent art. Sometimes, when I'm just sittin', shit happens. I get caught up in my own mind, and sometimes struggle to navigate it myself, or understand what I'm really thinking or feeling, or what reality really means. I came from a childhood, young adulthood, of strong religious belief, one I dedicated my entire life to. In the last year or two, I've discovered this reality carefully curated around me, and by myself, was a lie. It was everything. To finally think that what I believed wasn't true was like learning that the sky is blue when you've been taught all your life that it's green. It seems like a fact, a necessary function of the universe, unarguable. It feels as though the rug has been pulled from underneath you, and the foundation of your home with it. You suddenly realize why shadows are often blue and not green.
Learning these kinds of things not only makes you feel betrayal towards the people who drilled this doctrine into you, but also to yourself. How can you trust yourself when your own mind has been proven to be able to be manipulated, to the point you'd do any amount of mental gymnastics to make this green sky a reality? It's unnerving - and often feels polarizing, as if your beliefs and logic no longer match each other. I believe it's a breaking of cognitive dissonance. A realization that you can be wrong, horribly wrong, and can hurt people, thinking you've done the right thing.
My alt universe where Owen lives is a bit of a mental space for me, and Owen's dedication to the Navy has been programmed into him, drilled, indoctrinated, before he could ever begin to work out abstract concepts himself. There is a point, somewhere in this labyrinth of storytelling, where truths get revealed, where true free will is finally found, where he realizes he doesn't see colors for what they actually are. I imagine it would be a similar experience.
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
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Size 1654 x 1543px
File Size 1.23 MB
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