I am going to post a rather sad-ish backstory of my experience here

I basically didn't like Birthdays. My own birthday is overshadowed by my sibling. When I was young, I could never invited my friends over for a sort-of party for my birthday too. Yet everyone around me is celebrating it with their friends, even my own family.

So I got jealous and spiteful and start to push everyone away. Soon I have no friends at all and it was just something that I liked. Because during this time is also the time where I hated everyone and started to explore more of the internet.

Recently though, I have been seeing a lot of people just having fun with themselves. Having fun with their friends. I never had such fun, so I grew spiteful and jealous again because nobody wanted to have fun with me and it often feels like I am the cause of their sadness and anguish too.

Fortunately, I still have some very few that I can consider close friends. Those that would trust me if a bad rumor goes out. It's actually one thing that I absolutely hate. When people trust media and rumors more than they trust their friend. If you've known me, I absolutely hate the opinion that JonTron is racist since his debacle. I feel like if you really know him, you would know that is not true. That kind of thinking is how I consider a friend. (And well, I'd rather we don't talk much about this. Believe what you want, but I am pointing out the principles here)

Well! I still have them yes. And after being all spiteful and sad during my birthday that I never told anyone about, my friends told me that's pretty much why I am always alone - nobody had known my birthdate. So naturally nobody celebrates it.

And this is probably why I have been utterly depressed for the last month. Everyone is having fun without me, but it's probably my own damn fault for being a Tsundere bitch.

To start, I guess I should do something about my birthday. Today, I am letting people know that it is on the 7th August. Since I am on GMT+8, it is today. If I were to told earlier, perhaps people would be more prepared for it. But well, I am the one being late. And I suppose it is better to be late than to never at all.