I'm not sure if I'll be keeping up with this sudden change of perspective I've taken on my artwork, what with the drastic shift in lighting and all that I've been toying around with lately but I've been pleased with the results.

Not so much with how I treated Gespacho in this however :( like I treated him as an after thought and put all my emphasis on Juju (ironic, huh?)

Yet looking at this... I can't help but feel a sense of emotion coming over me from it. Usually I fail miserably at trying to convey anything, at least I think so, but with this one, it actually feels like something's there. Not sure what, exactly.

But there is a bit of story to go with this, yeah?

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(Interviewer) Would you consider yourself a lonely guy?

(Juju) Oh I suppose so... I mean I have my family, my friends... when they're around anyway. But most of the time, I'm on my own.

(Inter...) Feeling like the only person alive in a room full of people, sometimes?

(Juju) Sort of like that, sure.

(Inter...) Most people would label that with depression. I'm no psych, but hey...

(Juju) *Smiling innocently as he rubs the side of his face with his knuckles* Which is why Gespacho helps me out alot-- like sometimes the loneliness, if that's the word I'm really looking for, helps.

(Inter...) Oh?

(Juju) Sure... like I said, he's my apathetic roommate, and sometimes, that's all I really need. Someone to be there, but not at the same time.

(Inter...) Sounds confusing but I'm assuming your cat does that best.

(Juju) Yeah it's hard to explain I guess... I dunno if anyone else has felt that way-- but sometimes... sometimes being alone just feels... right.

(Inter...) But your cat is there with you.

(Juju) See that's the thing, isn't it? I'm alone yet I have my 'cat' with me. In the sense that no other human being is around, I'm still alone, right?

(Inter...) I think so... though I believe someone would have to disagree.

(Juju) I rather doubt many people would admit the company of their pets as truly fulfilling.

(Inter...) Unless they really are.

(Juju) Selfish pity is what I call it then... what person 'truly' feels happy alone?

(Inter...) Loners.

(Juju) Selective social distancing? That's a disorder psych's would love to analyze with lack of experience with others at a young age... blame the parents, blame society-- the finger is out to be pointed somewhere but it all really comes down to the person. 'They' have the capacity to change, it's just the barriers built up through that significant series of events which restrict them to even attempt the challenge.

(Inter...) Suddenly I don't feel like this is a normal interview anymore.

(Juju) *laughing as he rubs the sides of his face and then settles in his seat* It really isn't, but you did ask the question, 'if I was a lonely guy.'

(Inter...) That's true, yet I don't know if I really got my answer.

(Juju) Loneliness is nice at times; alot like crackers. Take a little but don't overfill on the satisfaction of something that'll leave you unfulfilled and possibly salty.

(Inter...) I'm sorry... salty?

(Juju) *trailing the path of tears with his fingers from his eyes as he smiles* Tears, friend. Tears. Loneliness leads to sadness.

(Inter...) Yet you never find yourself on the verge of tears do you?

(Juju) Nooo, never. Not from those moments specifically-- but I do enjoy a fine moment of solitude.

(Inter...) Is that what it really is then? Solitude?

(Juju) I believe it is.

(Inter...) I'm glad we were able to clean up that mix up then.

*Juju and the Interviewer taking a moment to laugh the wavering situation off of each other*