Just wanted to do some vent art and maybe talk about the cause of it a little and bc I'm an awkward bun who likes to hide things I'm doing it on the site where I have the least followers I know irl.

Sooooooooooo... If my profile pic isn't enough of a dead giveaway, I'm nonbinary. And well...sometimes that leads to uncomfortable situations with people who don't know. I don't blame those people. If they think I'm a girl and I don't say anything about it, it's only normal they'd act accordingly, right? But ye...It's still super unfun when someone makes a joke like "you're a woman shouldn't you know that?" or a specific example from just yesterday we had changed seating order and jokingly changed names with it so I was like "Oh so YOU're Hoopy nice to meet you" to the guy who took up my name because of this and he looked into his shirt before going "yeah it seems so". I have a rather complicated relationship with my chest but at that moment? Full on hatred.
Most of the time I have fairly little physical dysphoria. It's honestly MUCH more common for me to feel like trash after talking bc sometimes I just...squeak my words a little? And it's pretty damn feminine and i hate it. But right now is definitely a physical time. It's not even actual hatred but I think that's because right now it's just pent up feelings from things that already happened and I haven't had much trouble today. Anyway it just feels kinda like this body is misaligned if that makes sense. Like if someone took a bunch of lego people, took them all apart and just threw all the parts they grabbed first together so none of it feels really correct. This body doesn't belong to this head. Or maybe this head doesn't belong to this body? There just seems to be a huge disconnect between what I feel and what people actually see and some days -like today- that leads to a build-up of confusing and uncomfortable and messy thoughts and feelings that I need to spill somewhere.
If anyone actually bothers to read all this, wow. Thanks I guess? No seriously that already means a lot.

Also unimportant side note: fruit gore is aesthetic af and I swear this would've looked much better if it had been an art focused piece rather than a vent thing