just want to give an update of why i'm having so much delay on my commissions, recently i have and stress atack becouse of too much pressure taking care of my mother and others family menbers, also they push me so hard i dindt have a break to do anything, i start feeling bad becouse I just don't understand why everything keeps going wrong, I put my best effort to change and being a better person using what I know and belive and I only keep people getting mad at me, I don't know what's wrong, I do the best i can to amend everything I did wrong by helping others and being patient but I only do worse. for the first time in life I really feel afraid of not being in control of my self, I always thought that my mistakes were because of my bad temperament but now I really am afraid that this is a disease and I can't control it, even sleeping and eating well I feel depressed, my hands shake and I feel goosebumps for no reason and always feel like i need air also I am afraid to leave home and I can no longer control my fears or anguishes I just feel melancholic as if I lost everything that matters to me, I can't even make a line without the anxiety make me get up and walk in circles, that's why i start a psychiatric treatment and now i have a prescription that really help me to keep in control of my actions and don't feel anxiety, the only problem is it make me really sleepy and fatige so its hard to get up of the bed but i feel much better in a kinda way, i hope soon i dont need this any more becouse my biggest fear it's to have the same mental illness as my mother