'Will tomorrow ever come? Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place for the broken in the light?
Am I hurting? Am I sad? Should I stay or should I go?
I've forgotten how to tell, did I ever even know?

This time You're not hurting me! This time I will take a stand!
All the hatred in my eyes building up an evil plan
Standing lonely in the night, with the darkness by my side
Looking deep inside myself, and revealing only fright

If I make another move, if I take another step
Then It would all fall apart, there'd be nothing of me left
If I'm crying in the wind, if I'm crying in the night
Will there ever be a way? Will my heart return to white?

Can You tell me who you are? Can You tell me where I am?
I've forgotten how to see, I've forgotten If I can
If I open up my eyes, there'll be no more going back
Cuz I'll throw It all away and It all will fade to black

So I'm back here once again? So I'm back here once again?
Can I ever make a change? Will my heart begin to mend?
Would you love me If I go? It feels like a heart attack
But still everything's the same and It all just fades to black. '



'Bad Apple' cover by RichaadEb ft. Christina Vee

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Partial Vent, partial story. :'D

In the venting end, it's been a rough few days, and drawing snarly pissed off wolves helps me feel better.

In the story end, hoo boy, prepare yourself. Here's some lore. ALOOOOOT of lore. :'D This takes place when both Mica and Boris are in their 40s and Elias is in his 20s. So they're all bigger. And fluffier.

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At some point in the future, a stranger shows up on the doorstep of the castle that serves as the home of the Pack Nest. Said stranger comes in suggestion of an alliance due to the fact that... well, the Pack Nest is incredibly powerful in force at that point with a mix of Werewolves, Vampires, and quite possibly a few other creatures. Unfortunately Aria is the one to face him initially after her and Mica are informed that this guy is just giving an entirely bad vibe to... pretty much everyone. Turns out this guy is another wolf, who also seems to /still/ hate the Vampires and is not pleased to be speaking to the Vampire Queen instead of the Alpha Wolf, and she doesn't take to kindly to the shit-talking this guy does.

Little does she know, her Silver is inside, promptly having a severe PTSD panic attack after seeing just who's outside.

Turns out her abuser was still alive, and currently talking to her vampire mate in attempts to form an alliance about 30 years after she escaped from him.

This doesn't go over well once Aria returns and finds her wolf in a sobbing, panicked state that she hasn't been in for YEARS until now, who also ends up screaming at her infront of just about everyone who's in the castle at that time.

But why are the two boys here, you may ask?

- Boris caught the scent when the door opened a second time, and, like a few others, ran to the door in attempts to come to the defense of his Alpha(and 'mate), only to break down himself and needing to nearly be help back from going out and killing the guy immediately.

Because it's the same wolf that attacked him and his brother and changed him.

Yeah, that's no joke.

Micas abuser was the wolf who turned Boris(and nearly hurt his brother), and he is NOT happy about recognizing him, and there's even more of a protective rage in knowing his history with Mica.

- Elias freaks out because Mica freaks out. He's NEVER seen his mother in this state of hysteria. She's always been strong and composed, even with her other breakdowns.

But never, NEVER, has he heard her scream like that before.

It causes HIM to panic and start sobbing in pure confusion and slight terror, which slowly turns into a burning need to protect the one who's protected him all his life.



All this being said, Elias went after him first.



Mica found out and promptly ran after him despite still being a sobbing, shaking mess, because she knows what her abuser is capable of and she refuses to allow her son near a monster like him. Boris followed despite her nearly screaming at him to stay, until he tells her /very angerly/ how he knows this guy. She's... KINDA understanding, but now even MORE pissed because not only did this fucker ruin HER life, he also effected the life of someone who she's close to, and thus begrudgingly let him come with.

So basically, you've got a 9'5" wolf who's pretty much screaming and crying and panicking the entire time(who can blame her though...?), her hybrid son who is pissed that his mom broke down so suddenly, and a smaller, scruffy wolf who is pissed because this guy more or less ruined his life and nearly hurt his brother.

It's safe to say they killed him VERY effectively, though Mica did do most of the damage, and actually ended up literally tossing the boys aside a few times to get to this man who caused her so much pain. She was absolutely terrified the entire time, and it took a while afterwards for her to even come out of her room.

But, as we all know, this is Mica. She's a stubborn old bitch who pushes past everything and eventually makes her presence known once more, though the experience unfortunately made her a bit more closed off for a while. She wouldn't speak or go near anyone, and the only people she let touch her were her kids. Not Aria. Not Boris. She didn't even play fight. It truly fucked up her head and she had to constantly fight herself and fend off returning urges after the mere sight of the man, and had nightmares for MONTHS. It admittedly kinda fucked up Elias ans Boris a bit too, with Boris lashing out every now and then and Elias shutting himself out from the world.

The entire thing was just... bad. Completely. I honestly want to say there's a happy ending to it like there usually is, but I don't quite think they, or at least Mica, would be normal after that. The boys would get better with a bit of help, but Mica would take MUCH longer to process. So no truly happy ending, though they will eventually continue on with their lives. Wolves have long lifespans naturally, and all three of them aren't even half the age they could be. They've got their entire lives ahead of them; They just hope they'll survive with their sanity.