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If this comic has helped you in any way, or you really enjoy it, the Ursa major awards are open for nominations here https://ursamajorawards.org/nominations.htm (not for much longer) Shine would come under graphic novel i guess...but yeah if you ever felt like you wanted to show appreciation for my work a nomination there would be an amazing gesture.
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SweetManda
I remember during my teenage years thinking any show of affection or any sign of childishness would result in me being outted as an AB. I remember being so paranoid about it (bearing in mind when I was a teenager there was no internet so I didnt even know the term Adult baby I just thought I was wired wrong) But I wouldnt even hug people because I thought that was a sign and people would somehow know about me wanting to be babied. Its silly now that I look back on it.
If this comic has helped you in any way, or you really enjoy it, the Ursa major awards are open for nominations here https://ursamajorawards.org/nominations.htm (not for much longer) Shine would come under graphic novel i guess...but yeah if you ever felt like you wanted to show appreciation for my work a nomination there would be an amazing gesture.
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SweetManda
I remember during my teenage years thinking any show of affection or any sign of childishness would result in me being outted as an AB. I remember being so paranoid about it (bearing in mind when I was a teenager there was no internet so I didnt even know the term Adult baby I just thought I was wired wrong) But I wouldnt even hug people because I thought that was a sign and people would somehow know about me wanting to be babied. Its silly now that I look back on it.
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I feel this so much D: I remember as a teen thinking if I even admitted to liking the kids shows my nephew watched unironically, it'd reveal I was a diaper lover and my brain would go into catastrophe mode thinking of ALL the outlandish things that'd result from that discovery (Note: Mom eventually found out, and it was...just a talk, then nothing. Relax, past me XD)
I told my mom 12 years ago that I like diapers, and she laughed and said "I have a kinky boy!" I explained that it isn't sexual, but helps me relax. Since then, she's talked with friends of mine who are afraid of their parents finding out. She's very understanding. I love my mom so much.
Yeah.... my parents ostracized me, took my door, threw away anything "not normal" they could find (including my stuffed animals (which I think is why I hoard them now)) took away my computer, game systems, and my door. Not all at once mind you but.... yeah.... honestly I feel like being disowned would have been kinder
My dad chucked all my cuddly toys away when I was like....10 we were all away that day and he just bagged everything up and it was gone when we got home. He'd taken them to the local dump.
He did it to my younger sisters at the same time so they were 8, 6 and 4 at the time. luckily my 8 year old sister had her treasured toy with her at the time because she was inseperable...but yeah all gone. My sisters were absoultely distraught so I got on my bike and cycled to the dump (it was like...6-7 miles away) to go and find all our toys I promised I would get them back for my sisters, but after searching through piles of rubbish I couldnt find any of them so i just cried cycling all the way home and had to tell them I couldnt get the toys back....Its one of my worst memories having promised id save the toys and not being able to keep that promise.
...I think i mention this in a previous page of shine. I think it was one of those moments that really impacted me as a person. My dad was quite poorly at the time so I dont think hes ever understood how traumatic that was for us.
He did it to my younger sisters at the same time so they were 8, 6 and 4 at the time. luckily my 8 year old sister had her treasured toy with her at the time because she was inseperable...but yeah all gone. My sisters were absoultely distraught so I got on my bike and cycled to the dump (it was like...6-7 miles away) to go and find all our toys I promised I would get them back for my sisters, but after searching through piles of rubbish I couldnt find any of them so i just cried cycling all the way home and had to tell them I couldnt get the toys back....Its one of my worst memories having promised id save the toys and not being able to keep that promise.
...I think i mention this in a previous page of shine. I think it was one of those moments that really impacted me as a person. My dad was quite poorly at the time so I dont think hes ever understood how traumatic that was for us.
Aw man, that would really must've sucked, yeah. :\
At least, I was "grown up" (some would debate this statement) when I had to get rid of most of my plushies. And they went to the local Goodwill, which is just a reuse store (drop things you don't need/want anymore off that are still usable, they clean them a bit and then sell them for cheap - helps everyone, especially lower income families), so that made me feel a modicum of good feelings...?
Also, I got rid of them due to lack of space where I was moving to, not because a parent decided that I was "too old" for them. :\
So all this to say that I really feel for you and I hope that you don't dwell on this anymore... I can see how it'd be traumatic for a youngster, and that you are better now, regarding that experience. :(
At least, I was "grown up" (some would debate this statement) when I had to get rid of most of my plushies. And they went to the local Goodwill, which is just a reuse store (drop things you don't need/want anymore off that are still usable, they clean them a bit and then sell them for cheap - helps everyone, especially lower income families), so that made me feel a modicum of good feelings...?
Also, I got rid of them due to lack of space where I was moving to, not because a parent decided that I was "too old" for them. :\
So all this to say that I really feel for you and I hope that you don't dwell on this anymore... I can see how it'd be traumatic for a youngster, and that you are better now, regarding that experience. :(
Sadly he had a stroke not long after that incident (which is how we found out his brain was super poorly, I didnt know that at the time of the toy throwing incident I just thought my dad was being cruel) He's not really been well since, he certainly was never the same person (which is often the case with strokes) So yeah tis kinda sad. oddly it was only after I had finished writing Found that i realised how Souffle and jack kinda represented the two sides of my own father. It messed me up for weeks when I realised that.
He'd just been discharged from the army having coming back from exercise in Kenya, he was acting really odd doing stuff super out of character (including this incident with the toys) you couldnt breathe without upsetting him, then one night he collapsed mum found him at 2am. They said he'd had a stroke with pnumonia on top we were told he wouldnt survive, when they did scans and stuff they found a parasite had gotten into his brain and literally eaten some of his brain and thats what triggered the stroke. He'd caught this thing whilst out in kenya. He was in a coma for weeks we were told he'd never wake up.
Being the eldest(I was 10) I was allowed to go see him in hospital my mum thought it was too grusome for my younger sisters...truthfully I wish id never been taken to see him because basically machines were keeping him alive at that point and yeah those images are burned on my retinas. he did eventually wake up but obviously wasnt the same person, he had memory loss and all sorts of issues but he was..32-33 at that point so was physically super fit (having just come from army life) so managed to get back into physical good health but had a totally different attitude and personality which made him pretty aggressive.
Roll on 20 years and he had another stroke this time all the fight went out of him he'd been eating helathy had quit smoking (he was a chain smoker before the first stroke) and generally trying to take care of himself but after the 2nd stroke he just started smoking again and refused physio therapy so now he's pretty much housebound, he's still alive but very much admitted that he's just waiting to die and he's been in that state for a decade almost now. so ...well thats the story of my dad
Being the eldest(I was 10) I was allowed to go see him in hospital my mum thought it was too grusome for my younger sisters...truthfully I wish id never been taken to see him because basically machines were keeping him alive at that point and yeah those images are burned on my retinas. he did eventually wake up but obviously wasnt the same person, he had memory loss and all sorts of issues but he was..32-33 at that point so was physically super fit (having just come from army life) so managed to get back into physical good health but had a totally different attitude and personality which made him pretty aggressive.
Roll on 20 years and he had another stroke this time all the fight went out of him he'd been eating helathy had quit smoking (he was a chain smoker before the first stroke) and generally trying to take care of himself but after the 2nd stroke he just started smoking again and refused physio therapy so now he's pretty much housebound, he's still alive but very much admitted that he's just waiting to die and he's been in that state for a decade almost now. so ...well thats the story of my dad
Went back to his first appearance, and still got the discotail:
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I do hope you will not skip the next parts. I kind of want to know how she will integrate her new found kittenhood with her adult lifestyle.
Also I do think her housemate would accept it. Not embrace it but accept it. That as long as Star doesn't act like a kitten or show off her stuff when she's around she will not tell anyone.
After all thinking logically why would she want to tell others about it? It won't really gain her much and most likely will end badly. Either she will be seen as a bitch for humiliating her roommate or she will be seen as a freak for sharing a living space with her. So I don't think she will tell others or make a big fuss about it. Telling her though would make things a lot easier since Star will not have to work so hard to hide it anymore.
Also I do think Star should keep her kittenhood hidden for the sake of others as well. They will likely be weirded out by it so she shouldn't lay that on them. Society can't say what you should and shouldn't do in private but they can say what you shouldn't do in public.
Also I do think her housemate would accept it. Not embrace it but accept it. That as long as Star doesn't act like a kitten or show off her stuff when she's around she will not tell anyone.
After all thinking logically why would she want to tell others about it? It won't really gain her much and most likely will end badly. Either she will be seen as a bitch for humiliating her roommate or she will be seen as a freak for sharing a living space with her. So I don't think she will tell others or make a big fuss about it. Telling her though would make things a lot easier since Star will not have to work so hard to hide it anymore.
Also I do think Star should keep her kittenhood hidden for the sake of others as well. They will likely be weirded out by it so she shouldn't lay that on them. Society can't say what you should and shouldn't do in private but they can say what you shouldn't do in public.
The interesting thing about Marellis though is that he’s into that scene as well. Perhaps a stalemate relationship starts between Marellis and Star, that if either of them tell on the other, the other will tell on them so neither of them do it.
With Marellis personality, status and rank though he might just dismiss Stars accusations. I really have no idea, I guess we’ll see
With Marellis personality, status and rank though he might just dismiss Stars accusations. I really have no idea, I guess we’ll see
My Grandparents took away my care bears when I got too attached. However, other plushies I didn't get attached to went with me to my new place. Adding to my collection is so easy, yet I did add two 3 foot plushies.
Sorry, Star, you're taking Bob home. No reason you have to leave everything with Maranda. I am curious to see the conversion back.
Sorry, Star, you're taking Bob home. No reason you have to leave everything with Maranda. I am curious to see the conversion back.
You thought any sign of affection would show that you wanted to be babied huh? Yeah, I get that. I went through a hard antisocial phase as a teen because I was terrified someone would figure out I wanted to crossdress (somehow) if I let anyone get close to me at all.
Part of the fear was because my mother knew and, well, while she supported it she was also an abuse survivor with severe PTSD from her marriage and my father was one of the most homophobic men I've ever known. She drilled it into my head to keep it the utmost secret OR ELSE.
In fairness she was just afraid her only child would die in a hate crime, but yeah, even me wearing a simple pride bracelet these days makes her anxious as all holy hell.
I'd wear it to work back at my old retail job a lot and not only did nobody ever insult me for it, I actually got a lot of complements on it, in a small town in rural Kentucky too! You just never know... :D
Part of the fear was because my mother knew and, well, while she supported it she was also an abuse survivor with severe PTSD from her marriage and my father was one of the most homophobic men I've ever known. She drilled it into my head to keep it the utmost secret OR ELSE.
In fairness she was just afraid her only child would die in a hate crime, but yeah, even me wearing a simple pride bracelet these days makes her anxious as all holy hell.
I'd wear it to work back at my old retail job a lot and not only did nobody ever insult me for it, I actually got a lot of complements on it, in a small town in rural Kentucky too! You just never know... :D
yeah my teen years i just remember keeping everyone so far away and being really very much a leave me alone sort of person...but then crying myself to sleep because all i wanted was to be held and rocked to sleep. i feel bad for teen me, i was such a messed up kid but then i guess most teens are in one aspect or another, figuring yourself out is tricky
Shine, as well as found, have inspired me to, for lack of a better word, SHINE! Found was actually the first babyfur content I ever saw and what kind of opened the door for me to explore what's out there, which if I hadn't done that I probably would still be seriously repressed. So thats a pretty big deal!
I LOVED this comic to the point before it became sexual a couple of pages ago.... that was a total turn off for me 'cause I'm a nonsexual little and i have nothing to do with BDSM and other stuff like that. Those scenes were disgusting for me. I don't want to offend anyone it is just MY point of view. I actually like these end pages and am thinking of donating some money to the author cause it had its moments though. She put a lot of work into it and deserve it i think.
Getting hugs or taking a liking to stuffed animals don't necessarily instantly relate to being an adult baby by any means. It's actually pretty common for other reasons to like stuffed animals. To decorate a house or keep as a sentimental item.
In fact, many plush toys are used to give nervous patients a safety item to hold just to comfort them.
Even these days when you just want to get one because it has a character from a cartoon or anime (like Pokémon) that you like. There are different reasons to own a stuffed animal other than babyness.
In fact, many plush toys are used to give nervous patients a safety item to hold just to comfort them.
Even these days when you just want to get one because it has a character from a cartoon or anime (like Pokémon) that you like. There are different reasons to own a stuffed animal other than babyness.
Yes that's very true but when you're paranoid already about your babyself it's easy to equate one to the other. Star is being stupidly unreasonable in this page and lure even points out she's being silly that's the whole point of the page :) that you can sometimes over compensate or be u realistic in your worries
I see a few ways the story progresses.
· Star gets the fluffy boi Martin, and he ends up following her life as she goes places.
· Star faces some awkwardness at work but ultimately reaches a level of begrudging respect with Sgt Marellis due to the number of unfortunately shared experiences they cannot speak of.
· The Bob Timeline, where he springs to life and makes Star a magical girl, complete with a transformation that regresses her to fit into the outfit. Turns out a ride or die sociopathic duckbeaver is pretty dangerous to have as a mascot animal. Completely out of place tonal shift and mood whiplash follows.
· Star gets the fluffy boi Martin, and he ends up following her life as she goes places.
· Star faces some awkwardness at work but ultimately reaches a level of begrudging respect with Sgt Marellis due to the number of unfortunately shared experiences they cannot speak of.
· The Bob Timeline, where he springs to life and makes Star a magical girl, complete with a transformation that regresses her to fit into the outfit. Turns out a ride or die sociopathic duckbeaver is pretty dangerous to have as a mascot animal. Completely out of place tonal shift and mood whiplash follows.
Although I hadn't discovered or been aware of the ABDL thing at that time, I've always had my teddy bear. He was with me every day when I grew up before I knew anything about anything and has always been by my side, and I never saw a reason to change that. He always made me feel better when I was feeling sad, and was my quiet supporter and keeper of my secrets. He's my most prized plush who has survived everything I have from as far back as I can remember.
I can be without him for a few days but if anything happened to him I'd be devastated.
I can be without him for a few days but if anything happened to him I'd be devastated.
By the way, i started reading this last night, and it almost made me cry a hundred times over, it helped me realize that maybe there really are people out there who could be there for a little baby like me, im always so lonely, i really hope i find some people to spend my life with, like how star spent her weekend, but maybe not to the extent that Manda and Tessa went with the control
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