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Post-Epilogue [Vent]
I made a big reflexion 6 month ago (september first 2019), this
Towards a great introspection of my last years and how I had been gradually emerging from a fairly large depressive period that I had been going through. During these 6 months of drawing by drawing one could say that I have continued to improve on the mental issue; I have had some strong dips, in which I have considered things, lets say, not good.
I know that I still have all the problems I had 6 months or more ago, but at least now I know how to cope better, although I still feel an empty billet, and I have been able to realize that one of the things that happens to me is that I can't feeling the affection that family and friends give me, it's like I know it's there, but I can't feel it, too, I've started to get emotionally strong for someone I know is not reciprocal even though we're friends and I can't either feel nothing like before, but my body tells me that the solution would be to be with someone but I think not, because if I'm not right for myself, how will I be fine for someone important; so I am isolated and alone even though I don't, and I don't know how to remedy this situation, I guess it will go away with time.
I try to placate this feeling of mine that I have telling myself that I must be strong for others, as in the "true strenght" vent.
I know that I am too dramatic and that I do too much art to vent. It is bad for me to do it, since it does not help me either, because it is as if I were talking to a wall, and although I do this with friends, I tell them my sorrows, I still feel as if nothing, and I end up bitterly embracing my friends with my shits I don't even know how to solve it, so I tend not to want to tell you anything, for fear of getting tired of me and leaving me. Although I do not know what would happen if they ended up leaving, since not being able to feel anything about affection, would I notice the difference?
I am very strange, and I do not understand myself, I only hope that 2020 is a year better than the previous one and that at least little by little I find the solution to this that happens to me, because I am already very tired of feeling in a way despite to see that it is not so, but to be unable to feel it. A little more I have to add, well yes, that art is a remake of that of 6 months ago, and I think something has improved, so not everything is so bad.
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