Honeypie POV 4-5-20
This one's a little less upbeat than Bandi's, but Honey Pie had a different past than Bandi did. (Her backstory can be found here: https://toyhou.se/2798418.honey-pie )
Bandi fully acknowledges his past, and feels compelled to build layers of acceptance and happiness over a rocky foundation. Honey Pie, on the other hand, finds comfort in forgetting her past. She's become very adept at blanking out her thoughts and letting time erode her memories, leaving her unburdened to live in the present moment.
At my age, I've seen some shit. In fairness, anyone my age has likely seen a comparable amount of shit. I always find it curious, though, when people choose to maintain a vivid recall of their past trauma. Some people are able to tell the stories of their years-old experiences like they happened yesterday. Correspondingly, I see the same emotions surfacing as must have been present during the experience itself. It seems like agony, and avoidable.
The message is not to ignore the past; it's instead a realization that there's usually a kernel worth saving and a much larger remnant that should just fragment, dissipate, and vanish.
As much as anything, this is the prime essence of Zoelle Badgernuki ~ my Honey Pie.
Bandi fully acknowledges his past, and feels compelled to build layers of acceptance and happiness over a rocky foundation. Honey Pie, on the other hand, finds comfort in forgetting her past. She's become very adept at blanking out her thoughts and letting time erode her memories, leaving her unburdened to live in the present moment.
At my age, I've seen some shit. In fairness, anyone my age has likely seen a comparable amount of shit. I always find it curious, though, when people choose to maintain a vivid recall of their past trauma. Some people are able to tell the stories of their years-old experiences like they happened yesterday. Correspondingly, I see the same emotions surfacing as must have been present during the experience itself. It seems like agony, and avoidable.
The message is not to ignore the past; it's instead a realization that there's usually a kernel worth saving and a much larger remnant that should just fragment, dissipate, and vanish.
As much as anything, this is the prime essence of Zoelle Badgernuki ~ my Honey Pie.
Category Artwork (Digital) / General Furry Art
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With ptsd, it's more like I -can't- forget. And in writing my stories, it's therapeutic. I try every day to combat what happens to me when the memories crop up, but I wish that my mind would have just blanked them out. Even if it did though, I have physical scars on my body... so... the memories come back when I touch or see them. The scars on Catt's shoulder? Those are based on my scars.
I hope to one day overcome ptsd, and be like her. I guess in ways I have found strength to do so... I enabled myself to love again despite all that had happened in my life and all I'd seen. Sometimes I see some of my memories because my brain chooses to bring them up and I'm numb by them and other times well... I need something to calm myself down.
I hope to one day overcome ptsd, and be like her. I guess in ways I have found strength to do so... I enabled myself to love again despite all that had happened in my life and all I'd seen. Sometimes I see some of my memories because my brain chooses to bring them up and I'm numb by them and other times well... I need something to calm myself down.
That makes a lot of sense. In the end recalling every tiny detail may show an inability to move on from the event. We deserve to move forward and away from what we’ve experienced while retaining the lessons that can prevent it from happening again.
With some things, however, I find I need to hold on to them to not repeat the mistakes. Like holding on to the detailed memory of abuse at the hands of an ex-friend so that I don’t find myself wondering if it was really that bad, and inevitably giving in again.
With some things, however, I find I need to hold on to them to not repeat the mistakes. Like holding on to the detailed memory of abuse at the hands of an ex-friend so that I don’t find myself wondering if it was really that bad, and inevitably giving in again.
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