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Never to love, never to fill
You are beautiful
You are desired
You are cherished
You are celebrated
They come
They leave
They come again
They leave again
Never to bond
Never to love
Never to fill
Your beautiful, empty shell
___
Symbolic art about my original character, Sally. A prostitute from my graphic novel reboot in the making. This is also some kind of vent art for me.
Sorry, the graphic novel reboot is taking longer than I originally planned! I'm struggling with real life shit, endless rejections, art blocks, and a continuously growing existential crisis since almost a decade now.
Have you ever been so stressed that the blood flowing in your circulation feels like it's made of millions of tiny spikes and needles? This tingling, burning fullbody pain which makes you dizzy? Because of this, both being awake and sleeping is exhausting for me these days.
Everything that used to be fun is only painful and tiring for me now, including art. I don't know who I am anymore. I am seeking and receiving help from different sources, but life would be too easy if any of it worked after all those years. Life would also be too easy if repeatedly doing my best was good enough for once.
Eventually, I'm often just someone's means to make a living and then get thrown away if the success they advertise doesn't show on me.
You are desired
You are cherished
You are celebrated
They come
They leave
They come again
They leave again
Never to bond
Never to love
Never to fill
Your beautiful, empty shell
___
Symbolic art about my original character, Sally. A prostitute from my graphic novel reboot in the making. This is also some kind of vent art for me.
Sorry, the graphic novel reboot is taking longer than I originally planned! I'm struggling with real life shit, endless rejections, art blocks, and a continuously growing existential crisis since almost a decade now.
Have you ever been so stressed that the blood flowing in your circulation feels like it's made of millions of tiny spikes and needles? This tingling, burning fullbody pain which makes you dizzy? Because of this, both being awake and sleeping is exhausting for me these days.
Everything that used to be fun is only painful and tiring for me now, including art. I don't know who I am anymore. I am seeking and receiving help from different sources, but life would be too easy if any of it worked after all those years. Life would also be too easy if repeatedly doing my best was good enough for once.
Eventually, I'm often just someone's means to make a living and then get thrown away if the success they advertise doesn't show on me.
Category Artwork (Digital) / Fantasy
Species Mammal (Other)
Size 903 x 1276px
File Size 988.6 kB
I relate. I'm grateful for the publisher I have and he's very easy to work with, but sometimes I feel like my sixteen hour days and weeks straight of work is just business as usual to him.
There's scenes I cry while writing and the best I can hope for my effort is " nice emotion there."
Don't know. Guess I should just be grateful I get any acknowledgement. Writers tend to totally overlooked since you can't take in my art at a glance. Not that I'm saying writers have it worse than artists.
Or maybe I don't even know what I'm talking about.
There's scenes I cry while writing and the best I can hope for my effort is " nice emotion there."
Don't know. Guess I should just be grateful I get any acknowledgement. Writers tend to totally overlooked since you can't take in my art at a glance. Not that I'm saying writers have it worse than artists.
Or maybe I don't even know what I'm talking about.
Well, not each day. When I get near deadline though, the family has to forage for themselves because I get up in the morning, sit down at the computer, and write pretty much non-stop until it's bedtime. I'll take maybe fifteen minutes for three meals and a snack. That will go for up to a month and is usually when I get assignments to write copy for him.
And then I take a break for a few months and only write for a few hours each day. At which point I get told I'm not writing enough. :( *sigh*
And then I take a break for a few months and only write for a few hours each day. At which point I get told I'm not writing enough. :( *sigh*
I know it's hard, but we gotta strive to separate our intrinsic value from our material value, and our worth from how useful we are to others. As far as we know we're just here to be here. Inner peace is the holy grail, cuz without THAT if you were rich, famous, healthy, anything it would literally matter not at all. This is something I am trying to get through my own head. I do believe it's a life or death struggle to get control over your own mind and your own approval back once you've lost it or have had it taken from you. But we can do it!
(I know I'm in here commenting on old stuff by the way, lol. But I know some of these struggles are still relevant!)
(I know I'm in here commenting on old stuff by the way, lol. But I know some of these struggles are still relevant!)
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