A little bit of vent art I suppose.. I will be disabling comments, since I am not looking for sympathy or understanding. The original title of this image is "My own worth"... but this image is more then that. I feel... lost. Iv had alot of loss these past few years, with very little to no gain.. and its mostly my own doing. Im a difficult person to be around.. Not because I am taxing on people or demand things.. No. Its because I am emotionally unstable. Dealing with someone who suffers from clinical depression, is no easy task. We are always down, throw our selves down, and hate ourselves.. Its hard trying to raise someone with depression up.. You never know there state of being. We say we are "fine", and often its a disguise to just be left alone, to not make people worry. I do not like being a bother, or burden, and so take my suffering alone.. For me I become passive aggressive alot when I hit a certain low. I know exactly why I do it too. To make my self feel worse, and to make people leave me alone. Though I also know its a silent cry.. And often its not answered, so I get the other thing I want.. more self loathing and to be left alone. My mind isnt safe, and I often think of things I shouldnt.

Iv lost something very important to me.. I had a friend once, who I thought I could trust and consider to be close.. I dont make friends easily, and I dont keep them long.. Nearly nine years is a long time, and I thought it wouldnt be something to just throw away.. but I guess this https://www.furaffinity.net/view/12845941/ isnt important.. this time it was not my fault. Im just a discardable thing though.. and my feelings dont matter.. But please dont worry.. Im fine.