Dedicated to my friend floof.

-incoming tangent-

Floo is the person I never had growing up, really. That one friend you could run to when you were sad over the stupidest of shit, and yet they'd tell you it's alright to be sad - and go out and buy your sobbing ass ice cream. That's how she is to me - the friend I never got to have when I needed it most.

I've relied on myself my whole life. For the longest time I didn't know what a friend was, or how to get one. All I had was myself. And I'm... a very irritating person to be around; I'm too opinionated and hypocritical. I tell people to suck it up when they cry, and yet when I cry I expect someone to be there for me.

Floof... well... she always finds little ways to make me smile even when my eyes are the size of rockets from crying. I dunno how, but it's... nice, to be going through adolescence with someone else now. It's a whole new ball field.

And there are times where I wonder why she's still as consistent with me; I'll tell her we'll make gameplans and we'll have fun, but sometimes, more recently, I have to leave or am not in the mood. Or I'm too tired. Who knows. :|;; I have a whole hatful of excuses...

I feel bad all the time... I feel like I need more time to spend with her to somehow repay her for all the time she spends with me... I just... hate the fact she does more for me than I do for her... she draws for me all the time, writes on occasion, sends me music, buys me shit on SL... more than that...

I just don't know what I'd do without her. Even with all the shit she goes through with her shitty family... she's still always there for me, making sure I'm alright...

...

Well fuck. Now I'm crying, lawl. And my allergies are flared so I'm probably going to suffocate on my own snot. Awesome.

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I'm wondering what went wrong.
There's lighting. But, there's no sound.
I fail, to touch from afar.
There was fire but, there's no light now.
Do i stay here, alone and deprived
Like a bird in a cage, or just one s tar in the sky.
But, let me be like a bird in a dive
And make my sky full, make it full and alive

Without you.
There's no-one else to show me.
Without you
There's no where else to find.
There's nothing
Why do I feel so alive?

My wings aren't working
Cause I'm falling
Catch me as I dive.
My wings aren't working
They're on me
But, I just don't know why.

Capture the light in your eyes.
It's frightening. How I let go of life.
I admit my sins in disguise
It's cowardly, yes, but i would rather lie than confess.

I'm wondering what went wrong.
There's bombs going off. But, there's no sound.
I fail, to touch from afar.
There was an inferno before, there's no light now.

-ralarare's song "Wings Aren't Working".
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3653046/

The track that inspired me to stay conscious to show my friend how much she means to me. This gave me so many ideas. I hope to be further inspired by the rest of his album, too. <3

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Giegue © Nintendo.
VERSION of Giegue © floof
Artwork // Txin // Balltripping-tastical bg © Myself.