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![Rebirth [Vent]](http://d.furaffinity.net/art/excitedcargoyle/1593617601/1593617601.excitedcargoyle_rebirth.jpg "Click to change the View")
This year made me a big big trouble, giving me more and more problems every day. More and more friends throwing me like a piece of trash after I stop giving profit of out friend ship.
So many knives in my back, and s lot of shit happening around me.
I was so weak and took this all shit into me.
I lived in the past, with emotions from past, every time crying out loud at nights because I lost something or someone, someone who doesn't give a shit about me at all.
I was so down, as I wanted to commit this one bad word starting from sui and finishing to de. I tried so hard to look happy in front of others, but had so big pain in my chest every day and every time. I had "low battery" every day and was drawing with the only happy thing, that I make customers happy. I didn't loved what I'm doing, how i'm doing it. I hated myself so bad. I was dependent of friend's opinions, and every bad word, bad cause hurted me so bad.
Even talking out to my husband didn't made me fell better, I started feeling worse and think of bad shit again and again, and so on. I had a protection shield called "agressive and toxic" which was used to defend myself from mental pain.
I know this didn't affected FA and you all, but it was. I suffered from my birth , parents always hit me for saying the truth, they teach me to keep all negative stuff into me, and I grew taking all negative stuff inside me. As I said, talking about it , made just worse, like ouy pull the vines and all those spiky things inside me and it wounds me inside.
Now it's the time to a re-birth. Working on myself. Throw the shit out of me and be better than I was. Much better.
I love you all, and you're the light in my darkness. You make my dreams come true and I can cry of happiness when I WANT TO, or be mad when I'll BE ACTUALLY MAD. I don't want to hie my emotions anymore. I don't want to swallow all those negativity that people feed to me. I will fight and be better. You give me this opportunity, To be the one I want to be. I feel comfortable here and I'll get better, I swear.
Thank you guys.
The reborn version of me I get to be a Teacup Gryphon now.
More info about species here: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36085511/
Thye're closed species.
Thank you to 
and 
for giving me a new breath and show me the bright side of world, while I was in total darkness.
This is a rant and vent. This is what I wanted to say to you. Thank to everyone who read all this shit. x>
I love you. ♥
Category Artwork (Digital) / General Furry Art
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Seems they got more issues than you do. From everything I've learned, not showing your emotions or expressing them for that matter will just lead you into a situation where you'll explode. Either verbally or... well. Keep working on yourself, that is the absolute best you can do~
No one could help myself till I didn't wanted to help myself, at least I know this thing, so neither husband nor friends didn't helped me get out from my inside shit till I understood that I need to get up from my knees by myself firstly , so i did it , and trying to stand out on my legs, and thank everyone who tried to help me earlier.
Awe, I am so sorry about all of that! D:
But you do have a community whom adores you in every shape and form <3
Everyone, including myself. If you ever need someone. To be that rock to support you. To get you back on those cute lil paws of yours, we are here. I am here.
We will help you, in more ways then one. Things you may even think is impossible!
We love you girl!
I am so glad you are transforming yourself for the better. Never look back! Keep moving forward!
My promise to you, I will always be here for you. Through thick and thin! <3
But you do have a community whom adores you in every shape and form <3
Everyone, including myself. If you ever need someone. To be that rock to support you. To get you back on those cute lil paws of yours, we are here. I am here.
We will help you, in more ways then one. Things you may even think is impossible!
We love you girl!
I am so glad you are transforming yourself for the better. Never look back! Keep moving forward!
My promise to you, I will always be here for you. Through thick and thin! <3
I've been struggling with some similar things the past few years, so for what it's worth I'm super proud of you for doing this! It's difficult as heck, but you're stronger than your past, your emotions are valid and deserve space, and you bring your own brightness to the world and to those around you - so thank you for choosing to fight the good fight. We've got your back~ <3
-holds my arms open to offer hugs-
I’m so extremely sorry your endured that for so long. I’ve always loved seeing your art. Vent, commission, gift I loved seeing all of it. You’re a truly incredible artist. This wolf, all of my characters and many others love and respect you so very much.
Always wishing you all the best.
I’m so extremely sorry your endured that for so long. I’ve always loved seeing your art. Vent, commission, gift I loved seeing all of it. You’re a truly incredible artist. This wolf, all of my characters and many others love and respect you so very much.
Always wishing you all the best.
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