Isn't vent art suppose to be bloody, dark and all weepy?

Well... It's my art so bugger it. (Actually I wanted to make a big journal like post, and instead of boring people I figure a chibi version of myself would be entertaining).

To start off, just letting everyone know I haven't been doing much between work and working on a video game project that I want to sell so I'm putting a bit of effort into, which means a bit less random art for a while.

On another note and the reason for the "vent" is honestly I kind of fell out of love with the tabletop rpg community after seeing a Neckbeardia video about killing furries, sorry I know it's a "joke" but it feels like the community actually hates furries from the 4Dchan wiki, the RPGnet posts complaining about furries being perverts and ruining their murder plans, and I'm only exaggerating a little as I notice a lot of stories tend to end with "yeah, we murdered that guy", and complaining about anime fans or chainmail bikini.

The constant prude conduct, the weird very closed clique nature of many groups I try to approach even on line and the fact it cost so much with books, dice and some groups demanding you PAY for the right to maybe play with them if they like you.

Plus over the years I found many on sites like RPGnet and Reddit kind of very dark, morbid, and very kind of scary.

I remember I brought up which system to play a Lion King setting on RPGnet, and nearly of the post were about deconstruction, about how magic made this, this and that happen because animals don't talk in real life and than proceeded to go some really dark routes of murder, incest and before I know it the entire "talking animals" was removed and replaced with humans. I left after I got banned for getting upset and fighting back against some guys taking this idea of half of the human population being swapped out with aliens, I was aiming for a silly fun raygun gothic adventure and they turned it into this dark, depressing death march and when I called them out on constantly taking light heart ideas and turning them into depression fuel the whole thing just went down hill.

On Reddit I asked why were rpger so afraid of sex, romance and sex mechanics even when there is a few officially made DnD books for adults, along with tons of rules for sex across various wikis, yet violence is very, very popular and openly excepted as the first, second and often the only response.

I was downvoted, and called so many names I just didn't bother with reddit anymore.

Being gatekept out by many communities was a push back into making video games more of my focus, which is funny as it was a game developing community that "pushed" me into creating tabletop RPGs due to feeling like I could not hack it.

It was because I wanted to make point and click games for a long time using Adventure game studio. I thought if I impressed them I would make it as a game designer, I made myself sick trying to listen to all of their advice and complaints only to eventually feel so bad I left video game making for a while.

I came back to it recently as a means to make a digital comic, a sort of infinite canvas like idea really.

To be honest when I take off the rose tinted nostalgia glasses and take a look at the past I find it's not very good, I was constantly screwed over by the roleplayers one way or another (one manage to cheat me out of a few hundred dollars worth of books for fifty bucks because I was desperate for bill money, and he knew it! Plus he got a commission of his rp character and try to give me weed instead of money, instead of the promised twenty I got a ten and Ranma 1/2 collection that was missing a lot of the discs and scratched to hell. Another try to get me to fully fund his group, but kind of not fully inviting me to the game, he failed but the attempt makes me mad) while the AGS thing made me realize looking back it was just a bad game maker, even in it's hayday, but it's all I had at the time so I try to make it work.

Thanks for taking the time to read this long rambling mess.