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one of those times when I wasn't quite ready for reflection and ended up sinking at the end. I drew the main part before I left for Prague (lol, a month has passed).
this is a kind of map of my relationship (without small infatuation, misunderstandings and unrequited love). not so much, not so little, but what is there. each of these people gave me some knowledge and experience in my life, including in sexual terms. I was happy to get to know them and... I try to appreciate the positive things in our relationship, even despite the huge number of unpleasant things that are etched in my memory. including me. walking through my memories, I just started to understand what the fuck I myself created and that.. well.. honestly, I'm not such a good person. more than once I lied, more than once I tossed between falling in infatuation and love without a clue how relationships work at all and made it hurt my couple, because I couldn't explain what was happening to me. because of the mess in my head and the lack of understanding of my own guidelines in life, I was a burden in many ways. my relationship with Reni and Duke probably gave me the biggest boost. partly because of their similarities as people, partly because of the nature of the relationship. because of them, I began to communicate more, overgrown with distrust and so on. I became stronger, for which I thank them. although this gratitude looks strange, given the enormous psychophysical costs in our relationship. from my side, for sure.
I'm still not ready for a relationship with anyone and I'm sad to hear confessions or just notice a little more attention. in fact, it's even a little painful for me to feel close and feel romantic attention to myself. it's like a pricks. heh, the porcupine dilemma...~ so I'll just continue to draw and develop myself. so far, it's much more interesting for me than trying to build a relationship with someone just to have it.
p.s. Reni and Strange - female; Mirru, Spike and Duke - male. just for sure.
original date of drawing: 15.03.20
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this is a kind of map of my relationship (without small infatuation, misunderstandings and unrequited love). not so much, not so little, but what is there. each of these people gave me some knowledge and experience in my life, including in sexual terms. I was happy to get to know them and... I try to appreciate the positive things in our relationship, even despite the huge number of unpleasant things that are etched in my memory. including me. walking through my memories, I just started to understand what the fuck I myself created and that.. well.. honestly, I'm not such a good person. more than once I lied, more than once I tossed between falling in infatuation and love without a clue how relationships work at all and made it hurt my couple, because I couldn't explain what was happening to me. because of the mess in my head and the lack of understanding of my own guidelines in life, I was a burden in many ways. my relationship with Reni and Duke probably gave me the biggest boost. partly because of their similarities as people, partly because of the nature of the relationship. because of them, I began to communicate more, overgrown with distrust and so on. I became stronger, for which I thank them. although this gratitude looks strange, given the enormous psychophysical costs in our relationship. from my side, for sure.
I'm still not ready for a relationship with anyone and I'm sad to hear confessions or just notice a little more attention. in fact, it's even a little painful for me to feel close and feel romantic attention to myself. it's like a pricks. heh, the porcupine dilemma...~ so I'll just continue to draw and develop myself. so far, it's much more interesting for me than trying to build a relationship with someone just to have it.
p.s. Reni and Strange - female; Mirru, Spike and Duke - male. just for sure.
original date of drawing: 15.03.20
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Category Artwork (Digital) / All
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Size 2024 x 3024px
File Size 2.66 MB
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