
Some more emotional transformation with Blue.
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Real talk for a bit: this is an emotional state I've been increasingly familiar with and afraid of. While I've never gotten an official diagnosis for it, I'm pretty sure I've got some flavor of dissociative disorder -- I've had voices keeping me company in my head for as long as I can remember, different personalities and personas that range from benevolent and helpful to malicious and dark, and just in the past month, some of the latter ones have been making new efforts to take control.
It's a terrifying feeling, not knowing if you're in full control. So even if it's not quite the same circumstances, I do get how Big Blue here's feeling -- and that empathy just makes me want to give him a hug.
It's a terrifying feeling, not knowing if you're in full control. So even if it's not quite the same circumstances, I do get how Big Blue here's feeling -- and that empathy just makes me want to give him a hug.
It's mostly just a matter of working out an arrangement with them, and making sure I maintain an equilibrium between the good personalities and the bad ones. The only 'help' that's really available involves psychoactive drugs -- the last time I tried those, they silenced everything, both the good and the bad, which made things worse for a long time. I often talk with the good personalities when I'm feeling low, and they'll often come to the fore to try and help me when I need it, so it's detrimental to me if I lose them.
But yeah, it's stressful and scary when that sense of control starts to slip away.
But yeah, it's stressful and scary when that sense of control starts to slip away.
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