
This is another one of those...dont read if you're feeling fragile, pages....Alhough ends a bit more hopefully. Truthfully this is how I've always felt about me...being me I guess. There was a point where if I could have had my little side extracted and disposed of I would have done it in a heartbeat. These days im increasingly thankful that I have a little side I'd be lost without that inner kid part of me, I'd be half a person.
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I had some similar thoughts as I first dealt with different kinks and such.
As I first watched Ranma 1/2, a boy who is cursed to turn into a girl when hit with cold water and sometimes even wears girls clothes, I somehow wanted to try that as well.
Wearing girl clothes, of course, not turning into a girl while being hit with cold water... but I wouldn't have mind that as well.
Later, I found myself wanting to try on diapers, after seeing such scenes with adults in diapers on TV. I think we all know Donald Duck: Modern Invention^^
I was also asking myself, if I was normal or a pervert. Or, even worse, if that means I'm a pedophile?
Luckily, I'm neither of that. I found other people on the internet with the same kink who I could talk aobut. Who were just like me. I even had the chance to meet a few of them in person.
And today, I just enjoy wearing diapers, playing with some plushies and don't worry too much about such things.
I still have sometimes these doubts, but I can always count on my friends in the community to help me^^
Your comic and art, Babystar, has also helped me a few times when I was feeling down. And I know it also helps bringing smiles to many, MANY other "little" ones! Thank you SOOOO much!
*Hugs*!
As I first watched Ranma 1/2, a boy who is cursed to turn into a girl when hit with cold water and sometimes even wears girls clothes, I somehow wanted to try that as well.
Wearing girl clothes, of course, not turning into a girl while being hit with cold water... but I wouldn't have mind that as well.
Later, I found myself wanting to try on diapers, after seeing such scenes with adults in diapers on TV. I think we all know Donald Duck: Modern Invention^^
I was also asking myself, if I was normal or a pervert. Or, even worse, if that means I'm a pedophile?
Luckily, I'm neither of that. I found other people on the internet with the same kink who I could talk aobut. Who were just like me. I even had the chance to meet a few of them in person.
And today, I just enjoy wearing diapers, playing with some plushies and don't worry too much about such things.
I still have sometimes these doubts, but I can always count on my friends in the community to help me^^
Your comic and art, Babystar, has also helped me a few times when I was feeling down. And I know it also helps bringing smiles to many, MANY other "little" ones! Thank you SOOOO much!
*Hugs*!
I know this feeling all too well. As a believing Christian, I know, deep down in my heart and mind that this isn't what God wants for me, and I've asked it to be taken away countless times. Yet, Gennie still exists, she doesn't go away, my needs and desires don't go away.
I know that God loves me for who I am, even this way, but there are times when I hate myself so much for being 'weak and fragile and little and a baby girl' because I'm not these things. Yet, some part of me is.
So, I carry on, live the best way I can, and I know that I am forgiven, I know that I am born again and none of this is going to change that. So, for that I am thankful.
I know that God loves me for who I am, even this way, but there are times when I hate myself so much for being 'weak and fragile and little and a baby girl' because I'm not these things. Yet, some part of me is.
So, I carry on, live the best way I can, and I know that I am forgiven, I know that I am born again and none of this is going to change that. So, for that I am thankful.
I'm not a believeing christian, and I'm not trying to talk you out of your religion or something. I belive in God, but not so much in Religion.
This is just my personal opinion: God doesn't WANT anything from us. He gave us the power of decision, and we should live like that. He gave us the ten commandments (I'm german, not sure if they are called that in english, but I think you know what I mean) as a guidance. And, as long as you choose freely and don't hurt anyone, he will love you for who you are. There is nothing that needs to be forgiven.
You maybe didn't choose that part of you, but you can choose to accept it as a part of you.
As I said, this is just my personal opinion. I don't want to start a religious discussion here.
This is just my personal opinion: God doesn't WANT anything from us. He gave us the power of decision, and we should live like that. He gave us the ten commandments (I'm german, not sure if they are called that in english, but I think you know what I mean) as a guidance. And, as long as you choose freely and don't hurt anyone, he will love you for who you are. There is nothing that needs to be forgiven.
You maybe didn't choose that part of you, but you can choose to accept it as a part of you.
As I said, this is just my personal opinion. I don't want to start a religious discussion here.
I was born into a catholic family, baptised and forced to go to sunday school and church all the way through the end of 2nd grade, I'm not a bapist but it's all the same bible just different interpitations of gods word. you have the jist of what my pastor says though. God doesn't want anything from us but to live our lives as best we can, be kind to others, and just be honest with ourselves and believe in him.
As for your question yes it's called the Ten Commandments in English. the 10 "do any of these and you need to repent hard and make ammends or risk being condemned to purgatory or worse hell"
As for your question yes it's called the Ten Commandments in English. the 10 "do any of these and you need to repent hard and make ammends or risk being condemned to purgatory or worse hell"
I think, my child, that you may have forgotten a thing.
“Judgement is The Lord’s,” I believe the passage goes, and the general thrust of things, is that it is not for we mere mortals to take it upon ourselves to presume to know the mind, or will, of the Almighty.
Now, normally we are encouraged to keep this in mind towards others...but, do not forget that you don’t know The Plan for yourself, either, luv.
I have sometimes had some disagreeable people try to hurl their religion at me, as a weapon, because I am trans. “God doesn’t make mistakes,” they shriek.
Well...no, He doesn’t. But He does test people from time to time. And it seems to me that people who heap abuse and suffering on others who are ultimately harmless and inoffensive - however odd we may be, dearheart - are failing that test.
And the moral of the story is, O Christian Child, do not disdain how God has made you, for you are exactly as you are meant to be.
*hugs*
“Judgement is The Lord’s,” I believe the passage goes, and the general thrust of things, is that it is not for we mere mortals to take it upon ourselves to presume to know the mind, or will, of the Almighty.
Now, normally we are encouraged to keep this in mind towards others...but, do not forget that you don’t know The Plan for yourself, either, luv.
I have sometimes had some disagreeable people try to hurl their religion at me, as a weapon, because I am trans. “God doesn’t make mistakes,” they shriek.
Well...no, He doesn’t. But He does test people from time to time. And it seems to me that people who heap abuse and suffering on others who are ultimately harmless and inoffensive - however odd we may be, dearheart - are failing that test.
And the moral of the story is, O Christian Child, do not disdain how God has made you, for you are exactly as you are meant to be.
*hugs*
Yes sadly the individual will go through these stages. some people will be like this as kids but as parents find out about it. They get mad punish the kid forbids them from doing it again or the kid grows up not realizing it or never indulged at all but always feels something missing for the rest of their life.
I agree either Elly is standing just outside of the door so her shadow doesn't come in or someone is a TOTAL baby girl and needs her door cracked and the hall light on to scare the monsters away so she doesn't have nightmares while she goes night night. I'm personally hoping for BOTH.
This does make me think a lot. I've always been really weird so for most people around me the diapers were actually one of the easiest things to accept. Since unlike most of my other quirks it's not disruptive or dangerous.
With people constantly complaining I'm too noisy, make a mess, am violent, am incredibly socially awkward, am very rude and other things. Doing diapers in my spare time is almost quint.
With people constantly complaining I'm too noisy, make a mess, am violent, am incredibly socially awkward, am very rude and other things. Doing diapers in my spare time is almost quint.
In many ways though I do envy you in that your desire for it is so strong. I can only indulge in it rarely because otherwise I would burn out on it. You can do it as many times as your schedule will allow rather than having to hold yourself back.
With you it's so strong you go do it as many times as you like and however you like without there being any danger of burning out. No threat of you leaving the community or anything like that.
With you it's so strong you go do it as many times as you like and however you like without there being any danger of burning out. No threat of you leaving the community or anything like that.
Considering ive only really had proper little time once really this year back in June, im not sure what you're saying in terms of indulging is accurate. BUt it IS a strong part of me and something I think about every day even if i cant indulge every day, so yes its unlikely i'll be leaving the community (though thats just jinxed it LOL)
I love everything about this panel. While I don't struggle with these feelings anymore and have been "wearing my kinks on my sleeve" so to speak, with regard to my fandom presence, it's just a nice throwback to understanding that these feelings are a normal part of the process.
I can never really explain why I like diapers and why I like wearing them. Why do I have that fetish? I don’t really have anyone I trust to fully open up in that indulgence. So I do it on my own always have. I wear around others or in public. I don’t trust people to just be open about it. Like just walk around that way or get pictures.
I used to have pictures. I tried to be open. I got trolled online for it and other things. And the people that did it talked just like this among other awful things they said.
It changed my life. I was a lot more happy go lucky. Open. Care free.
I’m still very friendly. Just guarded, jaded, broken in some ways. People are cruel and provoked even for just trying to express oneself.
I just want to feel safe. Feel vulnerable with someone to trust.
I used to have pictures. I tried to be open. I got trolled online for it and other things. And the people that did it talked just like this among other awful things they said.
It changed my life. I was a lot more happy go lucky. Open. Care free.
I’m still very friendly. Just guarded, jaded, broken in some ways. People are cruel and provoked even for just trying to express oneself.
I just want to feel safe. Feel vulnerable with someone to trust.
Couldn’t tell you. It was back in 2008. I had posted a fursuit video on YT and thats what started the trolling and doxxing. 4channers I guess. I didn’t know who they were. I should have blocked and ignored them I tried to fight back dmca stuff, returned comments etc. Never reply. Ignore and block. I also learned to not have too much personal information online.
Addresses, phone numbers, places where I worked. Don’t put that stuff online.
Addresses, phone numbers, places where I worked. Don’t put that stuff online.
This comic cuts deeper and deeper each time I read it. Yet, I still come back because this community is a huge part of my life. I am sort of in the same boat as Star. We don't know much about her passed but we know little bits of it. I am the same way. I can remember stuff from when I was little. I don't know that might be part of why I am in this community. Heck I still have the red green yellow and blue nursery fan in my room.
I genuinely feel like this 24/7 as of lately I wish sometimes I know how to make it go away but no matter how hard I try it never seems to fade or disappear when I got to have fun last month as everyone had gone on holiday without me I was home alone it was scary but I got to be me I got to have fun exploring myself and my needs I can say I would relive that week again in a heartbeat so much fun but still so lonely I wish I had a friend I could talk to and see but all the time I just feel so so alone it hurts but I have gotten used to it now.
That page made just made me cry. It's just wonderful and is actually a similar speech I had recently. I used to be so shy and reserved about it but then I joined a discord server full of genuinely caring and loving people, met my gfs and life has been much easier ever since. And that's also thanks to you
I kind of feel the same here. If I wasn't into anthropomorphic animal characters, let alone ones that use regression and alternate realities to escape the harshness of real life, there'd be no telling where I'd be. I would not have made such respecting and nice friends online that took me in when I was down and felt like giving up.
Though, I suppose living a normal life meant that I'd end up with some dead end job that I may not have been happy with anyway instead of exploring my artistic talents of creativity.
Though, I suppose living a normal life meant that I'd end up with some dead end job that I may not have been happy with anyway instead of exploring my artistic talents of creativity.
This reminds me when I was young at the age of 13 I decided I was too old for this part of me so I declared mental war with that part of myself. During that time it really tore me apart into 7 different voices in my head 5 fragments & 2 complete voices. Then when I turned 18 I just decided to cut it out and accept this part of me. Ever since then I've been a lot happier & been meeting some very nice people.
This writing is reaching a fever pitch in accuracy and realism; I've felt like I identify with it so much.
I've always been fairly reserved with diapers, given my mother's parenting... techniques. So I sort of became two people, and that is what I'm reminded of in the last panel.
I've always been fairly reserved with diapers, given my mother's parenting... techniques. So I sort of became two people, and that is what I'm reminded of in the last panel.
One time, I went to this kink event with a few friends. It was ABDL themed. There was something like 80 people there. They were watching cartoons, playing with toys, there was cuddling and diaper changes and bottle feeding and pillow forts and peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and story time and just about every type of ABDL activity you can imagine... it was this magical, loving place that was unbelievable, as if I'd stumbled into Narnia.
And just like how Star described, suddenly my regular life wasn't normal. It sort of never was, at least not for me. In the regular world, I cannot say that I'm completely authentic, but there, at that ABDL event, where I can just wear diapers and socialize with other people in diapers... that was authentic. It was normal.
Maybe all "normal" really is is the understanding that living an authentic life and fostering authenticity is a call for acceptance and love, so that we can be who we really are. We can be the best us.
And just like how Star described, suddenly my regular life wasn't normal. It sort of never was, at least not for me. In the regular world, I cannot say that I'm completely authentic, but there, at that ABDL event, where I can just wear diapers and socialize with other people in diapers... that was authentic. It was normal.
Maybe all "normal" really is is the understanding that living an authentic life and fostering authenticity is a call for acceptance and love, so that we can be who we really are. We can be the best us.
I think once you've opened that box, and connected with others in that sort of nurturing safe space, you cant really go back to ignoring everything. Its easy to...pretend its not a thing, its easy to ignore what your heart wants, if you've never experienced it. But once you've had that taste you can't really go back to the way you were before. LOL Im totally describing this as if I was bitten by a vampire HAHAHA
God I wish I could show this page to my parents... It really comes around for me, cuz I feel the same way as star (And I mean... many of us feel the same of course) But... what Star says in this page... I've said the same speech to myself (and even my psicologist).
"It's not like I chose this... I didn't get a choose your kink wheel"
I love the whole comic, but this page in particular really makes me think of all the moments I've lived... all the friends I've made... all the people I've met... and it makes me say proudly.
I am a little, I am abdl, and I prefer it this way.
"It's not like I chose this... I didn't get a choose your kink wheel"
I love the whole comic, but this page in particular really makes me think of all the moments I've lived... all the friends I've made... all the people I've met... and it makes me say proudly.
I am a little, I am abdl, and I prefer it this way.
I wish I could tell star how it's not a kink it's not a sick fetish she needs to be ashamed of that's it's theriputic it's a help on her mental health and how all it is is going back into the mind of yourself as a child and enjoy the feeling of having no responsibility and just being a kid or a baby and how 90 percent of the world does this without knowing and she's one of the ones who embraces it and she should be proud to be who she is cause someone like her has the chance to feel the happiness that so few in this world actually embrace cause adults will call it childish when they this this is fun and don't think of it as wrong to be a kid again
Growing up I was taught (sometimes vehemently), that anything NOT 'Hetero', was bad/evil/deranged. Same with racism (anything NOT 'White', which happens to be my skin hue)..
It took me too many years, once I grew into the latter teenage years, joined my Countries' Armed Svcs., and then moved on to other, civilian jobs which had folks from every walk of life in them.
My first serious relationship happened to be with a woman who said she was 'Bi-Sexual'. She had been in a lesbian relationship until our paths crossed, and during our first date she came clear about that and other things in her past she felt 'I', as someone she wanted to be intimate with and perhaps share a long long life together, may want to know ahead of time.
I've always respected her honesty and bravery to do such a thing on a 'First Date'.
I came very close to proposing to her, but due to MY 'Baggage', and the fact she was indeed 'Bi-Sexual', she felt she'd have to lie to me/herself if we wed, and she couldn't just ignore that aspect of herself and commit to a strictly 'Hetero' marriage.
Many years later, we were still friends, and we had another long serious talk about things. I'd learned more by this time, and we both agreed it was something we could have worked through had we married.
Anyways, long reply, apologies.
During our 'Dating' time, I met with many of her friends who happened to be gay. Now, this was a serious issue for me, due to my own bad experiences with men when I was a child/young adult. Such contact was extremely triggering and uncomfortable to witness/talk about in easy company.
Many of these folks shared the exact same thoughts as what you just wrote down, Star.
They felt they had no 'Choice' in their orientation, and thought if they DID, they would not have chosen to be gay/bi/etc., due to all of societies' pressures against such things. This was back in the early 90's, long before I even got a PC and there was an 'Internet' as we think of this thing. I had little other way(s) to learn/research than in the field, face to face.
That finally woke me up to a simple fact: We're ALL 'People'. We ALL have our own likes/dislikes, 'Kinks' if you will, and so long as we're not forcing it on others, or hurting anyone/thing, no one has any authority to harass/attack us over it.
I just thought this is perhaps your most insightful page of the entire series, and wanted to congratulate and say 'Thank You' for it.
Be Well
It took me too many years, once I grew into the latter teenage years, joined my Countries' Armed Svcs., and then moved on to other, civilian jobs which had folks from every walk of life in them.
My first serious relationship happened to be with a woman who said she was 'Bi-Sexual'. She had been in a lesbian relationship until our paths crossed, and during our first date she came clear about that and other things in her past she felt 'I', as someone she wanted to be intimate with and perhaps share a long long life together, may want to know ahead of time.
I've always respected her honesty and bravery to do such a thing on a 'First Date'.
I came very close to proposing to her, but due to MY 'Baggage', and the fact she was indeed 'Bi-Sexual', she felt she'd have to lie to me/herself if we wed, and she couldn't just ignore that aspect of herself and commit to a strictly 'Hetero' marriage.
Many years later, we were still friends, and we had another long serious talk about things. I'd learned more by this time, and we both agreed it was something we could have worked through had we married.
Anyways, long reply, apologies.
During our 'Dating' time, I met with many of her friends who happened to be gay. Now, this was a serious issue for me, due to my own bad experiences with men when I was a child/young adult. Such contact was extremely triggering and uncomfortable to witness/talk about in easy company.
Many of these folks shared the exact same thoughts as what you just wrote down, Star.
They felt they had no 'Choice' in their orientation, and thought if they DID, they would not have chosen to be gay/bi/etc., due to all of societies' pressures against such things. This was back in the early 90's, long before I even got a PC and there was an 'Internet' as we think of this thing. I had little other way(s) to learn/research than in the field, face to face.
That finally woke me up to a simple fact: We're ALL 'People'. We ALL have our own likes/dislikes, 'Kinks' if you will, and so long as we're not forcing it on others, or hurting anyone/thing, no one has any authority to harass/attack us over it.
I just thought this is perhaps your most insightful page of the entire series, and wanted to congratulate and say 'Thank You' for it.
Be Well
I can feel that. Most of my life I was.. sheltered by my parents from learning about stuff. At 17 I was Google searching images and somehow (I really can't remember) I started getting interested in characters in diapers. And 3-4 years later I honestly can't see me not enjoying diapers/baby stuff. It is hard to think that something that I love so much, probably wouldn't be accepted by family and non DLs because it isn't.. "Normal".
Yeah, that's kinda how I feel about my little side... my inner child made manifest. Personally, I think the world would be a lot better if everyone had a strong inner child... perhaps not littles, or at least not baby-little, but just a strong inner child. This world would be more honest, creative, and accepting. Sure, bullies may yet exist, but no worse then the school bullies.
those last pages touched me really hard, i felt the same and tought i was some kind of freak, but i felt much better when i started to get in touch with other littles and be a little more open about it.
hope you keep doing this comic, its been a jorney to follow you and this story, your work is amazing, thanks for the feelings <3
hope you keep doing this comic, its been a jorney to follow you and this story, your work is amazing, thanks for the feelings <3
I always have these thoughts, it’s a real struggle putting those to rest despite how open and supportive were the people that knew and how even my future husband who’s 100% ok and sometimes helping is accepting all that. I just can’t shake off the idea that I’m a freak to someone else and must always hide my personality traits. So many what ifs that would’ve made lots of differences in my life and the way it had gone was out of pure luck and idk when is that luck going to run out.
Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door Burst through the door ... OR you know gently knock to respect her privacy but assert your authority by COMING IN ANYWAY!
I have gone though a phase like this before it sucks and honestly I didn't know what to do and just recently I found this comic surrounded by people similar to me and I feel safe here with everyone in this awesome community I want you to be proud of yourself and of your comic because it pulled me out of a very dark place and I appreciate that a lot
I have actually suffer from the inverse. That I get obsessed that I can't do it anymore and I have to do 'adult' things like admire machinary and make complicated reviews about classic literature. It's died down somewhat lately but it's still highly disruptive and frequently breaks up my little space.
I'm very aware of that but what can I do? It is because I really panicked about growing up and so felt I needed to do everything that felt my stereotypical idea of 'adult'.
Unfortunately I am interested in history and engineering so I got the idea in my head that I 'as an adult' can only do those things and have to like things that only adults can. Like things that are 'elegant' and all that nonsense.
Unfortunately I am interested in history and engineering so I got the idea in my head that I 'as an adult' can only do those things and have to like things that only adults can. Like things that are 'elegant' and all that nonsense.
I'm ... outing myself. Because this ... this is where I would like to be right now. I've only just taken my first few steps. I've had a big ol' plushie I still sleep with, 14 years later. I really think that was my first step, but... I've also been in diapers off and on throughout my life. Weird bladder problems 'cause of damage caused by gangrene when I was 6. But I... enjoyed wearing them. Even wetting them. Secretly, at first. I didn't admit to that until much, much later in life. At this point in life, I'm... well... beyond my finer years, but... I've finally cracked, I guess. My Little has surfaced and I've even had some crybaby moments ... I really, really wanna be a part of this. I just haven't been able to figure out how...
hey star!! occasionally i will go back and reread this comic to see all the work you put into editing the characters, and i just wanted to let you know that marello's old name is still on this page! ik you've been working hard to fix all of the old pages, so i wanted to drop you a quick note. i hope its helpful, and not stressful! 😅
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