I've been lately having troubles with some things, and basically stressing out a lot, i feel choked in my own home, and i can wait to live on my own, and start making my life my own, and not my family's.
This started as a simple drawing, and the lineart came out well, so i felt motivated to try to make a lineless drawing. and rendering shadows, etc
I think it came out well, but i'm noone to judge, i really cant XD
So yeah, i'm very very tired of everything, and there's so much things that worry me and make me feel this way. i feel alone, inside a brick wall, despite having my group of close friends, im feeling this way and i dont understand really why. I really barely can wake up or go to sleep without crying everyday with no reason, and i feel physical pain everyday as if someone has beaten me up like, a lot. And i cant go to any specialist that could help me bc my family says that "i dont need it, bc this is something that'll go away when i become older", and i have been feeling this way many years ago, and it worsen in 2018.
In the only place that i feel comfty and nice was at my workplace, but not anymore, randomly i have anxiety attacks and random crying moments, and i like a lot my work and the people that work there, but its been worsening day by day, and its sad.
2020 its been an strange year, a fairly quick one, i hope for this to fix on 2021, or so
I'm so tired