...is probably the knowledge that you haven't died in your sleep yet. Seriously, think about it: there's always that likelihood hanging over you that you could just go to bed and not come out the other side, and you would never really know whether that was going to happen as you laid to rest and especially not while you were sleeping. Is that better or worse than not knowing ahead of time? I don't really know, but I still think about it a lot. Take that hypothetical to bed with you tonight.

My house is surrounded on all sides by pine trees twice the height or more of my house. Now, these pine trees are pretty old and hardy, and in my more rational state I can assure myself that they'd have fallen down a long time ago if they weren't healthy and sturdy. But they do sway a lot in heavy wind, and that can sometimes be a bit hard to believe when you're looking at just how far a tree that big and seemingly so firm can sway. If a skyscraper did that, you probably wouldn't feel safe standing next to it. And when I'm trying to go to bed at night and the wind's really picking up outside, I often think about whether or not the wind's picking up enough to take one of those big pine trees with it. The wind almost always moves to the northeast where I live, which would line up the tallest pine tree of them all perfectly with the house. Perhaps even directly in line with my bedroom on the second floor, in fact. It would land directly on top of me and probably crash through both floors with as much ease as a hot knife through a stick of butter. I would not see or hear any of this happening. I could be just fast asleep, having a dream about being in high school again, and then I'd just stop and be immediately sent to the void. Which would at least stop me from having one of those dreadful dreams again, but I don't think dying is a very fair trade-off for that.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the drawing! It's Judy Hopps from Zootopia but gender-swapped. I have some more pictures of him in my gallery.