i used to be scared of dying someday.
but now im more than happy to know my days are numbered.
to live on in a place like this is just sickening to think about.
i am loved, and i am happy.
but like everyone else i have my down side and i have my flaws.
i know im nothing special.
and it just gets me giddy when i know that no one will remember me, just another face out of all the other souls.
and the fact that i could just end my life in an instant.
it makes me happy with tears.

im not going to shoot my brains out though lol

fae © me