Backstory is that I get major anxiety over death (specifically end-of-the-world scenarios like nuclear war and meteors hitting Earth) which tends to make my psychosis go haywire, I've had moments where I'll experience whole visual and auditory flashes of bombs going off around me over and over and it's terrifying. There was a specific moment where that happened up to a point where I began to accept my death, coming out of that episode was mindboggling. "Accepting your death" last moment is a feeling you'd never forget if you were to experience it.
There are specific things that can trigger these episodes, but I usually get specific moments that last weeks where I get these episodes daily.

Anyways this was drawn during one of those times, I drew it to calm down. It features my ex but I still like the art so-