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I celebrate today, my cancerversary, as my birthday because my actual birthday is literally just 7 days away and it's never a happy day, but today is and is not. It's bittersweet.
9 years ago today, I had surgery for the first time ever. It was preceeded by a whirlwind of pain and terror: Fine needle aspiration biopsies (which I have never experienced pain like that before or since), ultrasounds (to this day ultrasounds make me so upset that I have to be practically tranquilized before having them because—especially after my recurrence—ultrasounds mean cancer for me), and all in the span of two short weeks. This after about 6 years of telling my pediatric endocrinologist how much pain the literal lump in my throat was to me, and her saying we would just watch it. Then, some crap being trapped in my ears led me to an E.N.T., who took one look at me and his whole face changed. I fucking knew before any more testing was done. I could see it written all over his face.
Today was the day that I got a reboot. Today was the day that I lost my faith in the €hr1st1an God at age 17-turning-18. Today was the day that I became so lost, but that led me to truly find myself. Today is the day that I became open to abandoning the hatred my parents taught me, their bigotry, and would later choose true righteousness and justice instead. Today is the pivotal day that completely altered the course of my life.
I am so thankful to have had thyroid cancer. It was a true blessing to me, despite the trauma that also went along with it. It made me who I am today.
Now, I am 9 years a survivor, and I am 7 years cancer-free.
I hope I have many more years left in me.
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