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Kou was feeling good, the sky was so blue, and so beautiful, and she could scent the ocean in the distance. The wind, was wrapped and woven within her pelt and a smile was across her features. It was time she decided, to let go of the past, to let go of all that she'd endured. Her heart needed it as well as her soul, she needed the releif, the stress was becoming too much and her health was suffering for it.
Her eyes closed, and she inhaled a large breath, taking in the world around her, with all of her keen and precisce senses. She was the Alphess, she was the strongest, she was loved by her mate, and her major-domo, and her pack sister, she was so far away from everything that had happened to her, her mate had made sure that they had traveled far from it.
This was her time, this was her moment she thought, this was her turning point. She had to let it lie, even if there was no closure, no justice, she had to let it lie. That was what the creature who broke her wanted, was for her to spend her entire life miserable, and Kou refused. She wouldnt let this - and the damage that had been done to ruin her new beginning. She couldnt.
She opened her eyes and looked out at the vast territory that her mate had scouted for her and they had claimed, together. This was theirs, this was THEIR LIFE TOGETHER. Not anyone elses, and no voice, no pain, no past would steal that from them ever again.
She lifted her lips and growled, not to anyone or anything in particular, her shining ivories flashed and her ears picked forward. She was the Alphess, she was the formidible one, she was the strongest of them all.
She slapped her paw down on the ground where she stood, and her head fell back in a howl that spanned across the lands for miles.
Kou, for the first time in many years, was ALIVE.
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Artists Notes:
Okay, so yesterday I had put the Lion King 2's soundtrack on my spotify, and when I woke up this morning I had music playing and "He lives in you" came on, and as thats one of my favorite moments in the movie, I knew I had to draw it. But as I havent lost anyone, in my life, thankfully, I'm so blessed to have all of my family still. I felt like it meant something else to me, I felt like it meant that your spirit lives in you. And over the last few years, I have lost my spirit, my soul, I've just existed. The damage that was done to me, basically stole years of my life from me as hard as I tried to live a normal life.
But I'm starting to heal, and I'm starting to feel like I can finally INHALE and exist in MY LIFE not anyone elses. I can feel my freedom coming, from everything that happened, I can feel it. I can feel myself healing FINALLY. That I am going to conquer my C-PTSD. And that what she did to me wont matter soon. Like I said before, the hardest part has been not having closure or justice, and to be honest I'm just bored of being angry about it. Bored of using my PTSD as a crutch for my behaviour. This is who I am, what was created after 27 years of Mental, Emotional and Physical abuse, and I have come to terms with that, this is me. And I am okay with that.
But its time. Its time to move forward.
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Anyway, this piece took 2 1/2 hours, and I used a reference, of course, but I did not trace any part of this, I just looked at the image and went for it. The wind posed a problem, as I forgot to color Kou in first before I did the grey lines so I had to figure out how to lay the layers and stuff but it was a good learning opportunity for me. I learned more about effects and stuff, as well as the background, I basically had to erase it from below my lines but that made sense as well - so I may do background first and then my lines, and erase and whatnot. I am learning, and as this was a more angled head pose I think I did pretty well for being a beginner.
I also made this my new avatar :)
I am so proud of this piece!
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Category Artwork (Digital) / Animal related (non-anthro)
Species Wolf
Size 750 x 558px
File Size 164.8 kB
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