this took me like half an hour minus the time i took to munch on a pancake wowza

i've been sick the past few days(not the 'rona, just a flu from dried nostrils caused by my aircon), today's feelin a little better. CNY day 1 is today. I've been ruminating. About things. Had the urge to paint something with my deer sona Princess.

Mostly just been thinking about someone who I may or may not have a crush on and whom i've ghosted i guess. the feelings have been piling up and gnawing at me for months and it just sucks to feel this bad and be completely helpless as to stop it.

Maybe I'll finally get over it one day, it's not really helping and letting myself daydream isn't getting me anywhere y'know? Emotion things getting to me. Not like i'll ever contact them again. I should try to get over it.

Been feeling so shitty for months because of this, i think it's time to stop letting myself slip and just pack up and move on. Should make a mental note to devote to that from now on.