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It's June now, I'm still really hurting but I'm trying to do better.

Well, I didn't realize how much I was being abused by my best friend over few months. I cared for him a lot, he told me he loved me and wanted to be my boyfriend for years. But recently, he ran off with a girl he's never met, on the other side of the globe. He's changed so much, and not for the better. He blamed me for most that was wrong with his life, and I started to believe it. Despite trying my best to continue to be supportive, (even when I probably shouldn't have been,) it was just never enough. As someone who already has a low self-esteem and worries so much, it really, absolutely messed me up. I want to heal.

I've known him for the better part of my life. I miss him so much. I know that I'm better off without him, but it still hurts a lot.