This is BB (Baby Blue). This is going to be a little long... but it's about Eraya and who she was before now. oo;

For anyone who's interested, anyways. >_>;;

K, so... about 6 years ago, I got this idea that all of my friends should have a color and an animal to represent them. And this was way before I got into furries. x_X; Mine was a blue dog. Eraya was originally a blue puppy (BB) that was in love with an Orange Tabby (OT). http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4027136/ That was OT. Anyway... When I was drawing Baby Blue's feral form for the first time (or hell, her at all for the first time) I was looking at a fox reference. That's where she got her pattern from. She was a blue dog with a fox's markings. So that's when I decided she'd be half fox, to explain why a normal dog would have that pattern.

oO; It stayed like that for a while but then I went through a personality shift. The puppy/dog animal had fit me for a while. I was loving, kind, protective, loyal, social, naive, obedient, etc. But OT and I went through some rough patches and then we noticed our personalities had changed. I then chose a wolf to represent me. A wolf could go two ways: lone, outcast, vicious, strong, wild, etc; and then again wolves travel in packs, are committed and determined, social, blah blah blah, you get it.

So I had changed her to a wolf. :/ But I never got rid of the 'dog' part. Which is why I still tag her as a dog sometimes. She kept her pattern, just changed species. Not that it was very noticeable. :/ Then I met Jett.... http://www.furaffinity.net/view/4001259/ We dated and the only thing I really changed about BB was her eye color. It went from gold to green. :/

I ended up losing nearly all of my friends 'cause I chose him over them and that was, admittedly now, probably one of my most stupid mistakes. But I changed BB. I didn't want to be tied to my past. So ALL of my OC's had a makeover. BB became Eraya. I liked the fox pattern so much I kept it, just swapped the colors. :p

And then, wouldn't you know it, Jett broke up with me. :/ I haven't changed Eraya much since then. 'Cept now her eyes and tongue and lady parts are all blue. :/ But I think that maybe that's why I've got a part of me that's wanting to change her again. Maybe it's the me that's ready to come out after the dramatic shift after losing Jett. D:

There's her story. And that's my assumption to explain the feeling I have. I haven't been able to put it out on paper yet, but when I do. I'll feel a lot better. I just don't feel like the same person anymore. At least not right now. Ugh....