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Sometimes I just get really overwhelmed by my little side one minute im fine the next im this needy mess. I havent really had any littletime since...June?...gosh that was like legit almost a year ago.
Sometimes I just get hit by this huge wave of just wanting to be small and it takes me by surprise and takes my breath away, it makes my fingers and heart ache with just wanting so strongly to be small and looked after, to have someone looking out for me in that way to feel like someone can fix my problems with a hug and a warm bottle, a story or being put down for a nap, i just suddenly cease to function correctly.
It infuriates me that it breaks me so easily, even after all these years you'd think i'd be better preapred. I try looking after myself but its not really the same, and daddy hasnt really shown interest in that side of me for...well..years really I think he just sorta grew out of it which is fine because we all evolve over time. I still love him more than anything in my life the fact that he accepts this side of me makes me very lucky and I try not to be ungrateful for that. My little side feels lost a lot, alone, not really belonging to anyone.
Sometimes the feelings are gone as quickly as it hits me, other times It sticks around for a day or two and i mope around and try to distract myself throw myself deeper into work. I wonder which one its gonna be this time?
Sometimes I just get hit by this huge wave of just wanting to be small and it takes me by surprise and takes my breath away, it makes my fingers and heart ache with just wanting so strongly to be small and looked after, to have someone looking out for me in that way to feel like someone can fix my problems with a hug and a warm bottle, a story or being put down for a nap, i just suddenly cease to function correctly.
It infuriates me that it breaks me so easily, even after all these years you'd think i'd be better preapred. I try looking after myself but its not really the same, and daddy hasnt really shown interest in that side of me for...well..years really I think he just sorta grew out of it which is fine because we all evolve over time. I still love him more than anything in my life the fact that he accepts this side of me makes me very lucky and I try not to be ungrateful for that. My little side feels lost a lot, alone, not really belonging to anyone.
Sometimes the feelings are gone as quickly as it hits me, other times It sticks around for a day or two and i mope around and try to distract myself throw myself deeper into work. I wonder which one its gonna be this time?
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I'm lucky that I was able to take care of myself this time around when it hit me yesterday. I really don't know what to say about the feeling except go doodle some regressed artwork like proper make it look like a 5 year old drew it and upload that. I almost miss those scratchy doodles especially after getting one from you all those years ago when you were starting out on DeviantART. I swear if I didn't save that one I'm going to be proper mad, I should know better.
I want to share something that my counselor shared with me that has helped to remember about expressing my wants and needs, and ways to shed guilt over feeling that way, especially folks that had to assume otherwise as a kid:
YOUR LEGITIMATE RIGHTS
1. You have a right to need things from others.
2. You have a right to put yourself first sometimes.
3. You have a right to feel and express your emotions... or your pain.
4. You have the right to your experience - even if it’s different from that of other people.
5. You have a right to negotiate for change.
6. You have a right to ask for help, emotional support, or anything else you need (even though you may not always get it).
7. You have a right to say no; saying no doesn’t make you bad or selfish.
She paired it another set of reminders, lemme try and dig them up.
YOUR LEGITIMATE RIGHTS
1. You have a right to need things from others.
2. You have a right to put yourself first sometimes.
3. You have a right to feel and express your emotions... or your pain.
4. You have the right to your experience - even if it’s different from that of other people.
5. You have a right to negotiate for change.
6. You have a right to ask for help, emotional support, or anything else you need (even though you may not always get it).
7. You have a right to say no; saying no doesn’t make you bad or selfish.
She paired it another set of reminders, lemme try and dig them up.
Found it! She called them "cheerleading statements" but whatever works for you-- slowly but surely they've worked for me.
It is OK to want or need something from someone else.
I have a choice to ask someone for what I want or need.
The fact that someone says no to my request doesn't mean I should not have asked in the first place.
If I didn't get my objectives, that doesn't mean I didn't go about it in a skillful way.
Standing up for myself over "small" things can be just as important as "big" things are to others.
I can insist on my needs and still be a good person.
I sometimes have a right to assert myself, even though I may inconvenience others.
The fact that other people might not be assertive doesn't mean that I shouldn't be.
I can understand and validate another person, and still ask for what I want.
It is OK to want or need something from someone else.
I have a choice to ask someone for what I want or need.
The fact that someone says no to my request doesn't mean I should not have asked in the first place.
If I didn't get my objectives, that doesn't mean I didn't go about it in a skillful way.
Standing up for myself over "small" things can be just as important as "big" things are to others.
I can insist on my needs and still be a good person.
I sometimes have a right to assert myself, even though I may inconvenience others.
The fact that other people might not be assertive doesn't mean that I shouldn't be.
I can understand and validate another person, and still ask for what I want.
I’ll admit it makes me the slightest hair jealous when i see others having fun in little space mostly because to the moment of this post i havent been able to experience it myself due to a whole list of random stuff in my life that ill boil down to two to three things
One being found
Two i kinda consider this an extension to one, the fact of my little side existing being held against me like the oages of shine where stars boss had it against her
Three the lack of a safe space where i can be alone and experience my little side safely
One being found
Two i kinda consider this an extension to one, the fact of my little side existing being held against me like the oages of shine where stars boss had it against her
Three the lack of a safe space where i can be alone and experience my little side safely
If there's one thing I've learned over time and probably would have saved a lot of trouble for myself is that there's no harm in asking. Especially if it's someone you know. Tell them of your needs and what you're feeling and if they say no for the time? Well, you're where you were before. But they might also bring up a way to help you out at a later time or come up with a solution that might make you both happy.
It doesn't even sound like there has to be a sexual aspect to it from your description. Might make it easier to boot
It doesn't even sound like there has to be a sexual aspect to it from your description. Might make it easier to boot
Poor you... I kinda know how this can scramble one's safety... that even happened to me when I discussed with my daddy who was away for four months, and could only pop during march break... even that felt like ages ago when we talked at one point. I can only hope that, once vacation will be on for him too, he'll visit me sometimes TwT
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