This song has truly given me the push I needed to get through certain bullcrap I've had to unwillingly put up with. No matter how much you screw up, as long as you decide to push forward and keep aiming towards your dreams, you're going to make it.

Look. I probably had some shit coming. But there comes a point in time where you gotta let bygones be bygones, because hey. We are all sinners and we can't let our mistakes rule who we become. But you know, once you keep a negative feeling on someone, it starts to feed on them a different way than you expected.

Well, this is my stop to all of this drama. It almost ruined my final year of high school, and it's leaking into my summer, which, let me remind you, is almost over. If it weren't for some people, you know who you are, I probably would have given up. I didn't. Some of you think I'm pretentious about my goals and some of you don't even think I can make my dreams come true. I WILL prove you wrong, one way or another.

I'm tired of being angry. I'm tired of having nightmares. I'm tired of feeling bad about things I'm not responsible for. I'm tired of being on the edge.

I have been pushed to the point where it isn't uncommon for me to have a panic attack over any emotional ordeal.

This is my truce. This is my final straw. I am going to college, and I want it to be drama-free.

It's time we all did the same. No matter what anyone tells you, always believe in yourself. I believe in you. Thank you.

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"Not Afraid" by Eminem


I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Hola if you feel that you’ve been down the same road


Yeah, It’s been a ride…
I guess i had to go to that place to get to this one
Now some of you might still be in that place
If you’re trying to get out, just follow me
I’ll get you there


You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay ‘em
But you won’t take the sting out these words before I say ‘em
Cause ain’t no way I’m let you stop me from causing mayhem
When I say ‘em or do something I do it, I don’t give a damn
What you think, I’m doing this for me, so f-ck the world
Feed it beans, it’s gassed up, if a thinks its stopping me
I’mma be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I’m tearing down your balcony
No if ands or buts don’t try to ask him why or how can he
From Infinite down to the last Relapse album he’s still sh*ttin,
Whether he’s on salary, paid hourly
Until he battles out or he sh*t just battles out of him
Whichever comes first, for better or worse
He’s married to the game, like a f*ck you for Christmas
His gift is a curse, forget the earth he’s got the urge
To pull his d*ck from the dirt and f*ck the whole Universe




Ok quit playin’ with the scissors and sh*t, and cut the crap
I shouldn’t have to rhyme these words in the rhythm for you to know it’s a rap
You said you was king, you lied through your teeth
For that f*ck your feelings, instead of getting crowned you’re getting capped
And to the fans, I’ll never let you down again, I’m back
I promise to never go back on that promise, in fact
Let’s be honest, that last Relapse CD was “ehhhh”
Perhaps I ran them accents into the ground
Relax, I ain’t going back to that now
All I’m tryna say is get back, click-clack BLAOW
Cause I ain’t playin’ around
There’s a game called circle and I don’t know how
I’m way too up to back down
But I think I’m still tryna figure this crap out
Thought I had it mapped out but I guess I didn’t
This f*cking black cloud still follow’s me around
But it’s time to exercise these demons
These motherf*kers are doing jumping jacks now!



And I just can’t keep living this way
So starting today, I’m breaking out of this cage
I’m standing up, Imma face my demons
I’m manning up, Imma hold my ground
I’ve had enough, now I’m so fed up
Time to put my life back together right now

It was my decision to get clean, I did it for me
Admittedly I probably did it subliminally for you
So I could come back a brand new me, you helped see me through
And don’t even realise what you did, believe me you
I been through the ringer, but they can do little to the middle finger
I think I got a tear in my eye, I feel like the king of
My World, haters can make like bees with no stingers, and drop dead
No more beef flingers, no more drama from now on, I promise

To focus solely on handling my responsibility’s as a father
So I solemnly swear to always treat this roof like my daughters and raise it
You couldn’t lift a single shingle on it
Cause the way I feel, I’m strong enough to go to the club
Or the corner pub and lift the whole liquor counter up
Cause I’m raising the bar, I shoot for the moon
But I’m too busy gazing at stars, I feel amazing and


I’m not afraid to take a stand
Everybody come take my hand
We’ll walk this road together, through the storm
Whatever weather, cold or warm
Just let you know that, you’re not alone
Holla if you feel that you’ve been down the same road