So, I did a journal five months ago about my future fursona that i'm hoping to see made by Onefurall, one of many best fursuiter makers out there. You can view my old journal here, it will explain the whole story. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9734897/

I'm sticking to my word about what I said in the past, and I'm very serious about this path i'm taking, On December 20th...Nightwish will be gone. I will be killing him off when the clock hits exactly 12am on the 20th. I have waited six to seven long years to make this happen....but it seems waiting is just wasn't enough to make this wish of mine come to life. My goal now is to reach $3000, only then i'll still keep Nightwish around to make this fursuit dream possible. But I only have six months left to decide Nightwish's fate....and i'm slowly running out of time.

This is a heavy burden we both have on our shoulders...I don't expect people to understand, or see what I see, but this is something that has to be done....i'm tired of waiting around.