this is confusing o.o

these are my personalities represented in colors...
whats confusing you?

gosh

do i wanna know the rest O.o

ill only let you know 3
ask which 3 you want, k?

green
dark black and white near top

the white gets me too

green is my strategic, military type, love of fighting personality thats extreamly resiliant

dark black?
white near the top?

well, lets say this is a clock. what times are they?

11 ish

8 ish

think that's better

black in and out
its when im really depressed and actually showing it
8? the black and red? or the all white after that?

aww :(

all white O.o

thats the one thats completely void of any and all emotion

oh i've had those

thats a whole personality in my head

now i've gotten so hungry

i'm shaking

go eat then dude
or wait till it passes

thats what i do

wait til it passes it is
lols
i need to get rid of my little belly

dude, thats not really heathy

at about 95 lbs
inorite

what?

i weigh like 95 pounds

dude!!!!! how old are you again?!?!?!?!?!?!

17

dude!!!!!!!! you need to eat more!!!!!!!
im 15 and 135 ish pounds!!!!! and people say im thin as heel!!!!
you need more fuds!!!!!!

i remember being 56 pounds in 5th grade

and i'm eating now

eat much nao!

dude!!!!!! thats not good!!!!!!!!

i love skinnyness

dude, its not good to be as tiny as you sound

It feels great being skinny
it's not healthy though

put on some damn weight man!
go cug a gallon of bacon fat or something

then go throwup O.o
i weighed myself right at 98
after eating

dude, you either need some food or some muscle

i'm fine
:P

it aint good to be so scrawny

it maybe isn't good

it's bad if you concerned O.o

"it's bad if you concerned"?

idk
lols
i think i jumbled up thought
it's a bad addiction to be stuck wanting to be so skinny

it could be worse though....

addiction to gaming and being skinny

plus a drug addiction would be death

ive had various drug addictions... alcohol adiction... mastribationg addiction... cutting addiction...
and several others as well...

:(
i've just about passed out from not eating
it's a fucking surprise i'm not into every drug
i'd do really anything my friends talk my into lols


masturbating?
you mean
lols

i havent slept right in a while, so dont expect high brain function...

dude, thats not good. you need food

ive had times when i didn't sleep for a week

i think i know hoiw you feel

this sucks....
at least todays the last day of summer school

went to sleep at 5 woke up at 10

dude, am or pm?!

all in AM

dude... :/

i feel awful now :(

*hugs tight* go take a nap or something then bro

no some dude on here i think just took his life :(

wait, what?!

on FA

i didn't know him
but
shit
he left a journal like 30 minutes ago

what happened dude!

i dont know :(

but i hate it when people kill them selves :(

.....i tried............................ 8 times.............................

been there


i had character's i killed off before one :(

?????

yeah my one true kinda try

i was scribbling shit

then just killed character

let lots of various cuts and stuff then

cause nothing really mattered

then next thing i now

it's almost time for brother and sister to come home

(i was "home sick")

oh... dude.... wow.....

yeah

stress plus severe depression
plus meds that fuck me up

surprised i'm around now O.o

same dude

*hugs* i know how bad it can suck...

if there was a gun laying around
id sooo be dead

me too man.... unfortunately this is havertown.... the worst crimes youll find is like a stolen ipod or something... i dont know who would have a gun lying around....

the only thing that would work
slit wrist or throat

suffocating gives me erection O.o
i'm weird :(

lol, nice dude

but i see it as inefficient cutting wrists or throat...
ppl lose arms an live... and troat iss only if you cut deep enough and make the cut long enough (which your body would naturally resist)

i know i'm scared that the bastard doctors will keep me alive with an impairment

thats why ive chosen not to do that exactly...
ive thaught about this alot...
you need percise cuts and crap......

theres chance of survival with almost everything...............
though, running out into the street on a major rout whare cars go like 70 has a high chance of fatality, but it might hurt a lot if you dont die on impact

do you think jumping off the roof of a skyscraper would hurt
or die on impact

nah
i think pain then nothing

im not sure... i think wind burn would suck and whatever you hit on the way down would hert... but the ground, i think that would be on impact...

no turning back :O

i got a very sick feeling :(

why dude?

just the thought of suicide

why? how does that bother you?

there's skyscrapers around here

idk
i asked cause ti came to mind
shit my mind's fucked up

...dude.... dont kill yourself... you have no idea how guilty id feel if you did

i hope i dont?

that was too fucking weird of a moment

i just tensed up
knee joints hurt

*hugs tight* hang in there dude, okay?
do it for me... i dobt that means much, but please... do it for me

i willl


cant moove my toe
fuck

stepped on a plug
SHIT >:(

are you alright man? *worried*

yep ^_^
good now
>:D

good *huggles tight*

the weird thing is that i'm not depressed

suicidal

but hyper


i'm a little better now :(

dude... *squeses you tight and doesnt let go*

yo dawg O.o

feel like being a black guy now XD



i feel like screaming loudly

actually

XD why?

dammit do i have multiple personalities O.o

i feel different than before

my cuss constantly mood
and jump into things and cuss more
and shit

bipolar maybe?

slight headache


this shit feeling good

without caffine?

i have tried to tell psychiatrists that i am man
it just dont work

they suggest other shit
and think that they're right

think it's part of ADHD
i'm not this hyper all the time

look dude, fuck all them doctors and always thinking they know everything. just figure out what works for you yourself

if i was around a group of people
i'd prolly have the attention of everyone there

FUCK XD

lol

I'D BE GAY!!!

lol, wut?

idk

orgasm noises are funny
high pitched moany noises lols

do that all though time

lol, wow

Nancy Boy by Placebo is fun!! song!

it's prolly about gay sex

but i love it XD

??????

it's just a song XD

have u heard cigaro? by system? (soad)

not yet :D

now i did :D

XD

XD

i love SOAD

mmmmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeee tyewwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lady Gaga?

gagas a no...

when i was little
i had a little pickle
\

but i love gaga XD

????????????????????????

I'm just fucking with you ;)

uuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.....................

i like random weird rhymes

lol

i feel like makeup
and scaring kids

come on Halloween
:(

lol, i fell like................. nevermind... O///O *covers mouth*

is it weird that i like Hitler
and Stalin
:/

no, hinistly not at all...
hitler saved germany, and killed a lot in his day.
fun fact of the day:
adalf (hitler's first name) means gift from god

satin? i dont know much there....

Satan
is a yes!


Stalin another dictator


i'm a Satanist

dude.... no... religion, if its anything that you didnt conceive on your own is just another form of brainwashing and peoples lack of indeviduality or free thaught

LaVeyan Satanist
individualism man
:D

:P

if its got a title, its not individual...

it fucks with people
people are stupid

catch them off gaurd with Satanism man XD

just say it's cool :)

jk

O,o
lol

you know what i hate :)


above the influence commercials

advertise weed like it's soo bad >:(
mybest friends do it >:(

i know!!!! ive done it myself, many of my friends do it
its not bad!!!!
america is practically known for propaganda and brainwashing!!!!!!!!!
i hate it!!!!!


dont get me wrong i love the country itself, but the people in it... well over half of them are just corrupt fucktards....

i hate hte USA man

it's all BS people thinking we're the best country
we get into seemingly every war
into all other country's conflicts
are racist against whites
it's god-fucking-awful

im hoping for an uprising of some kind resulting in the elimination of mexicans, black and towelheads here in america, along with big buisness and shit.

we are better because we have the capability to take an entire country and reduce it to ruble with little more than a press of a button.
i say america should stop giving away jobs and should focus on its own issues.
AND WE NEED TO STOP BEING SO ACCOMIDATING TO EVERY TOWEL HEAD OR MEXICAN OR AND OF THOSE SHITS THAT GET THEIR SORRY ASSES OVER HERE!!!!!
YOUR IN OUR COUNTRY, SO LEARN OUR FUCKING LANGUAGE!!!!!

and Christianity has always fucked with everything

the Pope scares the shit outa me

lol
the power of chist compells you! XD

its amasing how much influence the promise of immortality has on people...

i know it's all a scam

you'd think heaven would be over populated by now

lols

wish i could throw myself into a wall D:

and 10th grade English PISSED ME THE FUCK OFF
it was all
how does this character relate to christ BULLSHIT
holy shit it pissed me off

i failed that grade

lol, my views of religion are very different
like god, to me, is like the queen of england. just a figure... no real power...

true man

that'showi'll see it now too XD

here, this is just a tiny bit out dated, but i still belive almost all of it still
http://yiharbin.deviantart.com/journal/33473964/
(old DA and FA journal)

you seem more familiar now
sinopaa

and Ian

and PA

O.o

i was once talking to her O.o
then she started talking a three way with another guy
plus me
lols
o3o

lols

*cries*

oh sowwy O3o had a random thought :/

.....i-its alright *crying (irl)*

:(
i'm so sorry i just realised who you were

dammit
i wanna hug you now :(
shit :(

you talk to people without realizing who your talking to?

.............dude....................................... just... just try not to bring that up..............

i knew who she was :/

i'm very sorry

fuck

my heart
hurts

i hurt someone

:(

i'll never type before i think again
dammit
now i want to harm myself

:(

dude, dont harm yourself on my account...
its fine dude...
you know about what happened with me and sinopaa?

and this was on the phone :/

so it could've been someone else :/

nno
not completely
:(

you really dont have to bring it up if it hurts
:(

its cool, if you wanna know what happened, its fine......
i hurt anyway.....

i hurt now

it's a thing that i fear the most is these situations
me even making a person sad

it hurts :(

my chest hurts

calm down dude.... its fine.... *hugs tight* i hurt a lot anyway.....

well i did it again

offended
upset someone

fml

really need to stop
whatever i do

already brought out the Manson :(

???

depressed as of now :(

and i've accidentally let things come out at wrong places

like one or to times before

i fuck up a lot

me too man...
*hugs* its fine...

had a crazy day
of depression
and throwing myself into things
might beat myself up more :(
not because of anything
i'm just losing it

ive been feeling really depressed and emo today...

but dude, calm down.

i cant man
well now i i am
lost it earlier
:(

*hugs you tight*

i'm adrenaline's bitch!
:(

*bites self*
O.o

calm down bro...

i think i am
:(

it's hot in here O.o
wow
72 O.o

not too much different here...

it's cooler moving all over the place O.o

??????
O,o

i know

it's weird

i think its that your moving. when your still your body notices more.

it hot
i want it to be 30 degrees outside again
and walk around with out even a jacket

you do that too?!?!?!

yep
it feels good
do you?
XD

i love the cold!!!
i litterally roll around in the snow with nothing but shorts on!!!

i want to do that

every like 10 years we get "worthy snow"
every 20 we get a snow storm
:(
i need snow more
60 is warm for me

anything over 60, for me, is too hot

YES
omg we're so much alike ^_^
lols XD

XD how old are you again?
how alike are we really?

17 :D

idk lols
you like cold

were both in our teens (im 15) XD
we both like cold...
you are a dude, right? (ive accidentally called a lesbian a dude and gay guy a chick XD )

yep

it would be fine to be called a chick
so very often
lols

lol, ur cool with being called a chick? 0,0

yeah
it's funny
i am a slut fag bitch and stuff
it's fun being called one
you tend to think people are dudes online
lols
til they prove that they're female
and to be imediately labeled girl by a person is funny XD

i more often than not think ppl are girls (because some have some a few femanine qualities XD )

do I?
XD

not really, but there are girls that act like dudes too XD

so, wait, your cool with being called a girl?! why?

idk
my girly gay side :P

are you bi?
if so, are you leaning towards the straight or gay side?

gay

that explains it XD
no offence

dont worry

:D i love it

so... gay huh?
weird...
ive relatively recently become bi

i've been gay for
idk
years O.o

lol

i was thinking
i want like pink skinny jeans
and a rainbow studded belt
need my hair styled and stuff
tighter fitting things XD

and need shopping money >.>

oh, so your that kinda gay...
not a fan..... not at all dude....
dont get me wrong, youve been fun to n all... but the blatantly, painfully gays are the ones i still cant stand...

sorry
are you gonna not like me anymore
:(

it wouldn't be a all the time thing though
just a sometimes thing

no, ill still talk to you, but i really cant stand the people like that.

i'm only like this
rarely
I'm just an attention whore at times lols

.....................................

but i'm stilll chiil around friends
i'm not an ass :/
just love colors :D

mhm...

cool dartboard xD

lol


thanks for faving btw <3

no prob ^^

now lets see... which emotion to use today *throws a dart* damn it! happy again? DX

XD



oh dude, note me!!!!
i gotta tell you sumthin!!!!!

ok!