so tell me....have you ever been in love?
horrible, isn't it? it makes you so vulnerable...it opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside of you and mess you up. you build all these defenses, you build them up so damn high, a suit of armor, so that nothing could possibly hurt you..then, one person, one stupid god forsaken person, no different from anyone else in this entire world wanders into your life and then you give them a piece of you. they didn't ask for it, or maybe they did, they did something dumb, one random day by kissing you, smiling at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. love takes hostages, it gets inside of you it eats you out and leaves you crying your heart out, crying so damn hard in the darkness, so simple a phrase like "maybe we should just be friends", "i don't feel the same about you anymore", that turns into a nail, working its way slowly into your heart. it hurts. not just in imagination, not just in mind, its a soul hurt, a real hurt, one that gets inside of you and rips you apart.

they say to love someone, it doesn't matter what they do to you, or how hard they make you fall, because in the end you can stand up tall and say i fought, i suffered, i cried, but i loved you. someday, you'll cry for me, i know you will, just like how i cried for you. someday you'll miss me, just like how terribly i missed you for months and months. someday you'll need me, like how much i needed you...someday you'll love me..but i won't love you.

it's not up to me anymore, if you want me in your life, you'll find a way to put me there. or maybe it was just not meant to be.

Fuck you.

--anonymous