Heya everyone,

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The short:

I moved to my mothers house. It’s dusty, moldy, and a hoarder’s house. I’m also highly allergic to dust and mold. My family is chaotic and abusive. I’ve been injured for awhile now and I had to change my doctor because my knees weren’t improving (still to painful to run or to move). There’s a lot more I don’t want to talk about. But this situation has put stress on my finances.

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The long:

So I had to take a break because I’ve been moving for a week. I moved out of my apartment with my roommates to my mom’s mold infested house. I would have gone back to my dad’s townhouse, but a year ago I left after his abusive self started back up again. It was so bad that I have very little memories of what happened. I pretty much repressed all of them, and I’m happy to keep it that way.

Now, my mother isn’t any better. She’s kind, but extremely delusional. She spends her days watching Gilmore Girls(she been watching the show nonstop for 14 years) and watching conspiracy videos. When she gets drunk she’s irritable and accusatory. She very homophobic, along with the rest of my relatives, so I never talk about being bisexual nor do I say anything about my furry art. Living her is like living with a person that’s stuck in the same loop, never willing to accept change, but wants for everything to change for the better.

My brother is also here. He’s a huge hoarder and the house is piled up with clothes and junk. He’s in his late 20s, works 4 hours a day at Amazon, and plays video games the rest of the time. He’s also a very argumentative person. We rarely talk.

My sister is what destroyed this already dysfunctional family. She’s an domestic abuser, drug addict, scam artist, thief, psychopath (literal not figurative) and so much more. She’s attack us all on different occasions. She constantly begs for money from my mother and verbally abuses her. She’s stolen thousands of dollars and she occasionally visits for short to long periods of time. That’s where I’m very worried, if she’s angry that I’m living here again, she’ll probably get violent with me and try to drive me out.

Another issue is that my knees haven’t improved. The tendons and ligaments are still giving me pain even after a year. The PT I was given, has not improved them and it’s getting me very worried. The issue is that the new doctor is not cheap and specializes in sports medicine, so that may help improve my situation. So, I’m going to need to do a lot more coms. I don’t like asking for money I didn’t earn, but if you can donate even a dollar to my Ko-Fi that would be greatly appreciated:

https://ko-fi.com/thedrafthorse

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There’s a lot more going on, but I’m so tired of having to recount everything. Thank you for reading this far. I’m so grateful that you all take time out of your day to enjoy my work and read through my notes. From the bottom of my heart, thank you 💜

-Syl