not usally one to draw vent art but I've been feeling this way for a while

I've been feeling lonly alo latly
my "boyfriend" hasn't talked to me in 3 weeks so i doubt were acctually going out anymore
and alot of my feelings that i have been keeping hidden and suppressed popped back to the surface recently after i've been talking to a friend of mine

I don't blame him i acctually thank him
but the bad side is now i feel lonly all the time and i see people in there cute little couples and i think to my self "that could be me, i just need to find him"

and i feel like "him" is either so close yet untouchable or far away but i can be with him if i spend every cent to my name

I just wish i could tell these people how much they mean to me but i can't for i fear a disterbence in the current relationship will completely anyolate it

Idk call me a coward but grrrr i hate this feeling

I don't know what else to say