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The post will contain revelations, my thoughts ..
A little less than a year ago, against the background of overwork and internal self-flagellation, there was a powerful panic attack. At that moment, mental pain hit me for no reason, hit with such force that I almost did something stupid. I considered it a weakness for my "ego" to turn to someone else for communication, although the VK personal was open, it was worth reaching out to the keyboard .. the most "hunter" - I was myself, including.
It happened again the other day. Psychologist ? No, have not heard
I would like to share this here. Now for the first time I do what I want myself, and not what makes me do my inner "Boss", thirsty for success and progress.
Thoughts that "no, this will not affect me, because this is the lot of the abnormal." And all these psychological and mental disorders can happen to anyone and anytime, if you do not take proper care of yourself, if you constantly ignore your true desires.
In pursuit of success in those areas that are interesting to me, completely forgetting about rest, the prospect of driving into a durka with a real diagnosis did not particularly sympathize with me. So, for the first time in 3 fucking years, I made myself a weekend. (Can I really afford it? Yes, baby, you can). I rest, do something for myself and experience an incredible thrill. And yet, it was as if some psychological barrier had broken in me, and it seems that a path appears from the very dead end into which I was driven and stayed there for a long time.
Perhaps some of you will find yourself in this post. We are all sick in our own way. Especially knowledge workers, people who strive for something, doing a tremendous amount of work on themselves day in and day out.
Take care of yourself, people, and do not forget to look up to him, enjoy even the simplest little things, sleep, rest and etc..
And thanks if you read this to the end. I am sincerely grateful for your attention ✨