I wish I could fit my heart into my chest, like most people can.
But with the intensity of my feelings, knowing that an unlimited number of people can fit into my heart, regardless of gender or age, and knowing that these feelings will never go away... I feel that my heart is too big, uncomfortably exposed, strange, abnormal.
When a relationship ends, people move on. I don't. When love is unrequited, people try to get rid of it. Not me. Whatever happened in life, it doesn't affect my love at all. 5 years later, 10 years later, "butterflies" are still there. :)
For a highly introverted person like me, this type of heart often becomes a burden that I'm not sure if I want to carry. People get scared and don't get it. "How can you love someone who treated you badly? How can you even love after all those years ALL of them?" Love is love. Time can't change that.
And so, I’m quiet now. I'll never tell you. I’m just smiling thinking about you, wishing you just the best in life, wherever you are. In silence and hidden from the world, so that my heart is hidden as much as possible and does not distract innocent passers-by. :)
On the other hand, I know it is a gift with lots of benefits, and for that reason I am learning to love myself, even with my unconventional emotionality.

Personal speedpaint ♥