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This is a personal story revolving around my character Spyke more for her found here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....er/67586/Spyke
And Topher an Ænelathype (who belongs to
LongshotRaven more about his species here:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18499981/
Trials of friendship, love, discovering emotions and other tribulations expected.
Both Longshot and I have rights to our individual OC's and I was given permission to use his character while writing. But all rights to Topher belong to Longshot.
Icon image done by
MetalManda
I Can’t Do This
By: Tabitha Thomas
9-4-2021
Topher made his way back to the hospital and upon reaching the door he peered through the small window of the door making sure the saber had been awake. His normal response would be to knock and go in politely and quietly but with the thoughts on what Yudan said he knew he couldn’t waste time. It was time to act instead of think and overthink. Taking in a sharp breath he burst into the room abruptly and practically slammed the door behind him. Seeing Spyke gaze up as if to speak first he raised his hand, “Let me speak first.” He saw her mouth shut and he continued quickly as though in fear of losing his thoughts or not having the courage to speak.
“Look Spyke, I am horrible at expressing anything. All these emotions are new to me and it’s hard for me to comprehend or experience them in stride. I’m good with numbers, not people. I’m used to being ignored and not spoken to but you somehow saw me past the digits and coding. I feel things with you that I still can’t put into words and it’s still so difficult for me to feel back.” Taking a breath his fists tightened at his sides as his long-winded rant continued, “I know I want to feel whatever it is you are making me feel I just don’t know where to begin or how to reciprocate things back. I think I am falling in love with you; if I can call it that.” Another gasp of air as he raised his voice to bring it home, “You are fascinating and witty, clutzy but fun, and so energized that I feel as though I’m going in slow motion when I’m around you but when I do spend time with you I- I feel good. I don’t want this feeling to stop. I want to keep coming back to you and spending time with you. I hope that you can find it in you to feel the same despite my stupidity. I’m stupid smart. I’m learning how to feel like how you feel but it will take me longer to understand and return those feelings.”
The sabers blue-green eyes had been wide when he suddenly started to speak his mind for the first time since they met. When he raised his voice, she leaned back in the hospital bed with eyes wide. Staring at the hybrid antelope-hyena as she began to speak, “Topher I can’t do this. I can’t teach you how to feel those feelings. You can’t just teach someone how to love, you experience it. There is no guidebook to it. And even if there was, they wouldn’t help us.” She saw his gaze soften and his shoulders slump. This wasn’t what he wanted to hear, but he needed to hear her out. “Do you even know me? We didn’t take much time to get to know each other enough to be in any kind of relationship.”
“It wasn’t too long ago you were throwing yourself at me like a hustler...” He saw her fangs bare and he raised his hands as if in defense. Clearly a poor choice of words on his part. Perhaps he should have thought before speaking on that remark. “I didn’t call on you as such but I do want to get to know you more.”
“I can’t believe you just compared me to a hooker!” There was some shock in her tone but she wasn’t too offended; if anything, she thought it ballsy, he was speaking his mind instead of calculating his conversation. “I’ll have you know I can’t be ‘bought’ I don’t have a price tag for my body or actions. Anything I do in bed with my partner is purely consensual.” Seeing the blush on his cheeks her ears went up seeing this as she hadn’t seen color on his cheeks before. Biting her lip and gazing away from him she frowned, “I can’t Topher. I can’t be a teacher like that. I’m not teaching you how to love. You have to do that on your own.” His silence concerned her so she looked back up and saw his fists tighten as he approached. When at her bedside she watched him lean in closer as though he was going to tell her something. “Topher what are you-” Her eyes went wide as she felt his maw latch to hers.
Were his actions loud enough? Would Spyke give him that chance? He had spoken so fast and done his actions with such swiftness that he hadn’t even had time to think of the recourse or what he was doing. What was he doing? His mouth was on hers and more surprising was their tongues touching. Losing air, he pulled back and took in a deep breath. Slowly his club pupils looked down to Spyke with a pale face; fear, resentment, cowardice, and second-guessing his decisions could be seen across his face, “Spyke, please let me-”
Her finger touched his lip silencing him as she gazed up to him with a sad smile and she was wiping away tears, “You, stupid smart hybrid. I love you so much that I hate you but you have to know a relationship with me will be a pain in the ass and it’s not going to be easy. I can’t have you being passive-aggressive with me and I also need you, to be honest with me. We need to be able to communicate Topher. If you can’t do that then this relationship has no start.” Looking him over she then met eyes with him again, “Topher, what are you asking me?”
He gulped lightly and realized how embarrassing it was acting on a whim felt and how his abandonment of thought had led him to this moment now. Even though it was far faster-paced than he had ever imagined it, this is where he wanted to be with the saber. Biting his lip, he shuffled and reached down to the hand of the female and held it, “Spyke, will you be my woman of interest?”
Her eyes narrowed, “No.”
“Wh-what?”
“If you’re going to ask me out you are going to do it properly.”
“P-properly? Like on a knee?”
Spyke sputtered out laughter, “No! That's marriage! Ask me to be your girlfriend.” Gazing at him she had a sense of satisfaction seeing him all flustered and struggling in his thoughts. It was cute seeing him fumble plus the initial shock of her saying ‘no’ to him which had his wide-eyed expression, it had been humorous. “Well? Go on.”
“I... I can’t do this.”
“Sure, you can, it’s just words Topher. Just say them with some meaning behind them.” Cool fingertips took his hand and she looked up to him fluttering her eyes, “Topher? What did you want to ask me?” She set him up again and waited with excited anticipation.
The panic was starting to set in on the face of the antelope-hyena. Looking down to her hand and then to her eyes he went stiff as his body felt warm all over. The sound of his heart was pounding in his eardrums, breath had drawn short, and what saliva that was in his mouth seemed to vanish. This was far scarier than her ex coming at him, or the thugs in the apartment, hell, even the mugger in the alley had paled in comparison to this moment. A very strong part of him wanted to run to the door and keep running but then he may never see Spyke again.
‘She wants you to fight for her and that means fighting yourself to get to her.’ Yudan was right and now was his time to fight for something for once in his life! He clenched his hand in hers and his eyes looked to the feline in the hospital bed with a newfound determination, “Spyke, be my girlfriend!”
“Demanding much? You didn’t even ask me.” Smirking she knew she had tormented this poor guy enough. “Topher, will you be my boyfriend?” The words came easily for her as she gazed up to him then impatiently leered at him as he blankly stared at her.
He was quite a moment as he stared at her in confusion as if not expecting he had a course of action at the moment. Feeling her hand tug his he quickly pipped out, “Yes, of course.”
“Ugh, you are hopeless.” A roll of her eyes but she grabbed his wrists and pulled him into the hospital bed and hugged him.
He struggled slightly, “Spyke! Let me go! I don’t want to crush you!”
“Yeah, right! You’re just embarrassed!” She smugly hugged him tighter.
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https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....er/67586/Spyke
And Topher an Ænelathype (who belongs to
LongshotRaven more about his species here:https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18499981/
Trials of friendship, love, discovering emotions and other tribulations expected.
Both Longshot and I have rights to our individual OC's and I was given permission to use his character while writing. But all rights to Topher belong to Longshot.
Icon image done by
MetalManda*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ: ※ ·❆· ※ *✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:I Can’t Do This
By: Tabitha Thomas
9-4-2021
Topher made his way back to the hospital and upon reaching the door he peered through the small window of the door making sure the saber had been awake. His normal response would be to knock and go in politely and quietly but with the thoughts on what Yudan said he knew he couldn’t waste time. It was time to act instead of think and overthink. Taking in a sharp breath he burst into the room abruptly and practically slammed the door behind him. Seeing Spyke gaze up as if to speak first he raised his hand, “Let me speak first.” He saw her mouth shut and he continued quickly as though in fear of losing his thoughts or not having the courage to speak.
“Look Spyke, I am horrible at expressing anything. All these emotions are new to me and it’s hard for me to comprehend or experience them in stride. I’m good with numbers, not people. I’m used to being ignored and not spoken to but you somehow saw me past the digits and coding. I feel things with you that I still can’t put into words and it’s still so difficult for me to feel back.” Taking a breath his fists tightened at his sides as his long-winded rant continued, “I know I want to feel whatever it is you are making me feel I just don’t know where to begin or how to reciprocate things back. I think I am falling in love with you; if I can call it that.” Another gasp of air as he raised his voice to bring it home, “You are fascinating and witty, clutzy but fun, and so energized that I feel as though I’m going in slow motion when I’m around you but when I do spend time with you I- I feel good. I don’t want this feeling to stop. I want to keep coming back to you and spending time with you. I hope that you can find it in you to feel the same despite my stupidity. I’m stupid smart. I’m learning how to feel like how you feel but it will take me longer to understand and return those feelings.”
The sabers blue-green eyes had been wide when he suddenly started to speak his mind for the first time since they met. When he raised his voice, she leaned back in the hospital bed with eyes wide. Staring at the hybrid antelope-hyena as she began to speak, “Topher I can’t do this. I can’t teach you how to feel those feelings. You can’t just teach someone how to love, you experience it. There is no guidebook to it. And even if there was, they wouldn’t help us.” She saw his gaze soften and his shoulders slump. This wasn’t what he wanted to hear, but he needed to hear her out. “Do you even know me? We didn’t take much time to get to know each other enough to be in any kind of relationship.”
“It wasn’t too long ago you were throwing yourself at me like a hustler...” He saw her fangs bare and he raised his hands as if in defense. Clearly a poor choice of words on his part. Perhaps he should have thought before speaking on that remark. “I didn’t call on you as such but I do want to get to know you more.”
“I can’t believe you just compared me to a hooker!” There was some shock in her tone but she wasn’t too offended; if anything, she thought it ballsy, he was speaking his mind instead of calculating his conversation. “I’ll have you know I can’t be ‘bought’ I don’t have a price tag for my body or actions. Anything I do in bed with my partner is purely consensual.” Seeing the blush on his cheeks her ears went up seeing this as she hadn’t seen color on his cheeks before. Biting her lip and gazing away from him she frowned, “I can’t Topher. I can’t be a teacher like that. I’m not teaching you how to love. You have to do that on your own.” His silence concerned her so she looked back up and saw his fists tighten as he approached. When at her bedside she watched him lean in closer as though he was going to tell her something. “Topher what are you-” Her eyes went wide as she felt his maw latch to hers.
Were his actions loud enough? Would Spyke give him that chance? He had spoken so fast and done his actions with such swiftness that he hadn’t even had time to think of the recourse or what he was doing. What was he doing? His mouth was on hers and more surprising was their tongues touching. Losing air, he pulled back and took in a deep breath. Slowly his club pupils looked down to Spyke with a pale face; fear, resentment, cowardice, and second-guessing his decisions could be seen across his face, “Spyke, please let me-”
Her finger touched his lip silencing him as she gazed up to him with a sad smile and she was wiping away tears, “You, stupid smart hybrid. I love you so much that I hate you but you have to know a relationship with me will be a pain in the ass and it’s not going to be easy. I can’t have you being passive-aggressive with me and I also need you, to be honest with me. We need to be able to communicate Topher. If you can’t do that then this relationship has no start.” Looking him over she then met eyes with him again, “Topher, what are you asking me?”
He gulped lightly and realized how embarrassing it was acting on a whim felt and how his abandonment of thought had led him to this moment now. Even though it was far faster-paced than he had ever imagined it, this is where he wanted to be with the saber. Biting his lip, he shuffled and reached down to the hand of the female and held it, “Spyke, will you be my woman of interest?”
Her eyes narrowed, “No.”
“Wh-what?”
“If you’re going to ask me out you are going to do it properly.”
“P-properly? Like on a knee?”
Spyke sputtered out laughter, “No! That's marriage! Ask me to be your girlfriend.” Gazing at him she had a sense of satisfaction seeing him all flustered and struggling in his thoughts. It was cute seeing him fumble plus the initial shock of her saying ‘no’ to him which had his wide-eyed expression, it had been humorous. “Well? Go on.”
“I... I can’t do this.”
“Sure, you can, it’s just words Topher. Just say them with some meaning behind them.” Cool fingertips took his hand and she looked up to him fluttering her eyes, “Topher? What did you want to ask me?” She set him up again and waited with excited anticipation.
The panic was starting to set in on the face of the antelope-hyena. Looking down to her hand and then to her eyes he went stiff as his body felt warm all over. The sound of his heart was pounding in his eardrums, breath had drawn short, and what saliva that was in his mouth seemed to vanish. This was far scarier than her ex coming at him, or the thugs in the apartment, hell, even the mugger in the alley had paled in comparison to this moment. A very strong part of him wanted to run to the door and keep running but then he may never see Spyke again.
‘She wants you to fight for her and that means fighting yourself to get to her.’ Yudan was right and now was his time to fight for something for once in his life! He clenched his hand in hers and his eyes looked to the feline in the hospital bed with a newfound determination, “Spyke, be my girlfriend!”
“Demanding much? You didn’t even ask me.” Smirking she knew she had tormented this poor guy enough. “Topher, will you be my boyfriend?” The words came easily for her as she gazed up to him then impatiently leered at him as he blankly stared at her.
He was quite a moment as he stared at her in confusion as if not expecting he had a course of action at the moment. Feeling her hand tug his he quickly pipped out, “Yes, of course.”
“Ugh, you are hopeless.” A roll of her eyes but she grabbed his wrists and pulled him into the hospital bed and hugged him.
He struggled slightly, “Spyke! Let me go! I don’t want to crush you!”
“Yeah, right! You’re just embarrassed!” She smugly hugged him tighter.
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